Zero Procrastination[UMOP V2]

[Zeroxmachina]

I think that's a resistance tactic.  You can't be productive if you're too tired after all.  I used to have that sort of BS to deal with.

There's next to no recourse, other than finding ways to function under a constant state of exhaustion. This is why I imagine most people are addicted to coffee. My vice is sugar, which thanks to the still-on detox of MLS tends to mean i'm having to urinate after almost everything I eat or drink, these permanent effects are ruthless.

Are you playing the sub and laying back on the couch while playing games and eating cheetos, or are you actually making an effort to consciously work with the sub?

That's just it, I don't feel like anyone actually wants to be a chronic procrastinator, but when the patterns are so ingrained over a lifetime, there is absolutely no ease involved or impetus to tackle things that don't give instant gratification. I am either forcing myself, consciously, using energy that's already not present in high amounts, or taking the path of least resistance, which is what i'm used to. I believe that it would be most effective to emphasize developing self-discipline moreso than motivation, which is easily misdirected towards the pseudo-accomplishments. In every case, I know (intellectually) that the key to success is being able to commit to a productive structure and be consistent. Will all that being said, tackling a core life issue in 30 or so days seems unrealistic, we're talking about restructuring something that has defined my actual ego-self, that's really a tall order, and I'm prepared for the long haul with that in mind.