WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[WildFlower]

Had my job interview today, which I think went really well. I really felt the developed Charisma aspect of myself during the interview. Whilst I had nerves, I also - almost paradoxically - felt at ease. I met all the criteria and got on well with the interviewer. I got the impression that I came across as likable - could just feel the charisma, it's only semi-tangible but I could feel it. The Women interviewing me must've been in her 30's and high up within the company. Strangely she would shyly, avert eye contact with me a lot of the time. I have a second interview there within a week or two.

I had to ring up this morning and take a day's holiday so I could go to the interview. I'm really not looking forward to going back in again tomorrow, I should imagine my boss will have a suspicions I've been for an interview and things will be uncomfortable. Although, luckily, with Alpha male there is always the background comfort and I'll take things in my stride.

I've had this weird feeling all day though. Like whether I'm doing the right thing (I totally am), the fear of change perhaps? I have a sort of empty feeling as the expectancy of one job ending and a new one beginning. This new job, if I get it, will test me in a lot of new ways - which I'm really excited about - but I do feel uncomfortable with change like this. It's nothing to do with subliminal's, but rather my own personality.