WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[WildFlower]

The first few weeks of Sex Magnet where insane. My mind was all cool, chilled out and secure; it's always been that way, but it had also been significantly boosted by alpha male. Sex magnet challenged that. My sex drive just went through the roof. I had this luscious, sensuous, desirous swelling of energy moving around within my physiology and extending itself beyond myself. It felt like a play of impatient bliss. It was an unbearably pleasant feeling; unbearable because it was so hungry, pleasant because it felt blissful. My mind was chilled out, but my body was overcome. I don't know whether I'm glad or not, but this feeling has now died down.

My standards are very high; perhaps even artificially and unrealistically high. I may have priced myself out of the market. This has led me to consciously lower them. I've had to, because I'm pretty desperate for sex right now lol. Neediness is zilch though.

Any body image issues have vanished. I'm noticing a relative increase in the number of IOI's I'm receiving. I still doubt interest though, and consequently, sometimes, refrain from capitalizing on the IOI's. I'm working on this. No negatives really to speak of. It's pretty safe to say that most people see and acknowledge me as an attractive guy. My careers really progressing as well.

Sex Magnet is crazy; I'm holding on for the ride.