WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[Ryan]

Sounds like you are taking stage 4 just like me... Honestly, I've been wanting so much alone time the past month and a half and the whole clubbing scene just really wasn't my thing lately. But I feel a lot of that coming back now that I am finishing stage 4. The one thing I also noticed was that it was harder for me to talk to others. It wasn't that I was in my head thinking of what to say or being shy. It was that I have been really aloof, indifferent, and just not really caring that I'm so numb or zoned out that I really can't think of anything to say. It's strange but it's fixing itself as of lately, thank god. Especially, when it comes to women. I had many awkward dates in stage 4 where I was so tongued tied, not out of nervousness, that there were moments of awkward silence. Plus the whole... not feeling so sexually desirable has been getting me a lot this month too. I believe the harder moments have been as of lately, finishing the month, seems to be bringing out of a lot of crap.