07-25-2010, 11:46 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-25-2010, 11:48 AM by WildFlower.)
I went to my friends party last night which was mostly just close knit friends. It was really fun but not much to report. One girl I used to go out with three years was there. This girl taught me not to date someone from my own social circle - bad news trust me. We split because I found her disrespectful, self centred and emotional. At the only point we saw each other she got very emotional and whiny because I was chatting to one of her friends (also a friend of mine) She's a bit of a nut case, but thanks to the Alpha set I handled it really well.
After the party was over at about 2am several of us walked the half hour walk into town. As we got towards town this car pulled up next to the pavement with 6 girls in. Apparently they where playing a 'game' and needed to kiss someone as part of it. Out of my friends they picked me and asked if I'd kiss one of them. Normally I'd decline anything like this as it's tacky, cheap and not very Alpha but last night I totally just seized it and put my head through the car window and started kissing one of these girls for a good 30 seconds. I don't know why I did it - if it was built up arousal I've been feeling or what. Either way I actually enjoyed feeling like a piece of meat and there was something erotic about how bizarre, out of the ordinary and weird the event was. As the car drove of my friends where stood there totally bewildered at what the hell had just happened. Weirdest thing ever.
Once we got to town the thing that really stood out was how seductive and suggestive my eye contact and facial gestures where, likewise I got the same suggestive and seductive eye contact back of a lot of girls. It was a lot of fun. The tension was sizzling and unlike normally I was enjoying and reviling in the sexual tension rather than feeling mildly uncomfortable in it's natural unresolved-ness. It seems that fear of uncertainty is a trait in my psyche which can be quite influential although in such a subtle, invisible way I've never even noticed it before. I'm really starting to see it now, and the Women Magnet seems to be addressing it, at least in regards to sexual tension. Normally I'd be seeking to resolve sexual tension one way or another as quickly as possible, but last night I noticed I was revelling in it. It seems I find fuzziness unsettling and I strive to resolve that fuzziness into something as 'yes' or 'no, 'on' or 'of', '1's' and '0's', something concrete, something logical, objective, and certain. I'm really glad this has come to my attention, and I can actually feel Women Magnet changing this partly and allowing me to actually enjoy, not just women, but their at times 'vagueness' as well.
After the party was over at about 2am several of us walked the half hour walk into town. As we got towards town this car pulled up next to the pavement with 6 girls in. Apparently they where playing a 'game' and needed to kiss someone as part of it. Out of my friends they picked me and asked if I'd kiss one of them. Normally I'd decline anything like this as it's tacky, cheap and not very Alpha but last night I totally just seized it and put my head through the car window and started kissing one of these girls for a good 30 seconds. I don't know why I did it - if it was built up arousal I've been feeling or what. Either way I actually enjoyed feeling like a piece of meat and there was something erotic about how bizarre, out of the ordinary and weird the event was. As the car drove of my friends where stood there totally bewildered at what the hell had just happened. Weirdest thing ever.
Once we got to town the thing that really stood out was how seductive and suggestive my eye contact and facial gestures where, likewise I got the same suggestive and seductive eye contact back of a lot of girls. It was a lot of fun. The tension was sizzling and unlike normally I was enjoying and reviling in the sexual tension rather than feeling mildly uncomfortable in it's natural unresolved-ness. It seems that fear of uncertainty is a trait in my psyche which can be quite influential although in such a subtle, invisible way I've never even noticed it before. I'm really starting to see it now, and the Women Magnet seems to be addressing it, at least in regards to sexual tension. Normally I'd be seeking to resolve sexual tension one way or another as quickly as possible, but last night I noticed I was revelling in it. It seems I find fuzziness unsettling and I strive to resolve that fuzziness into something as 'yes' or 'no, 'on' or 'of', '1's' and '0's', something concrete, something logical, objective, and certain. I'm really glad this has come to my attention, and I can actually feel Women Magnet changing this partly and allowing me to actually enjoy, not just women, but their at times 'vagueness' as well.
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
