Warning: Not a UMOP post. Just a post to help Shannon learn my issues and mindset for DMSI. Yes, I'd like cheese with my whine, thank you.
Late last night, was on my email. Mentor was referring to something on their IG. I clicked, and viewed it. But, while I was on IG, I was automatically logged into it.
I felt the urge to look at a couple girls I know, their profiles. I regretted it, as I usually do. Both didn't show interest in me in the past, despite my interest in them then and trying for them. We don't talk anymore, they froze me out as what happens usually with girls. Both seem happy and doing well, and look extremely hot.
Made me feel inadequate and alone, a failure for not getting them and wondering why, not being good enough, what's wrong with me that they're universally seeing and hating, blah blah. All those typical wonderful feelings guys so often feel. Kept me up a long time, and is still really bothering me now the next day.
Back to taking care of tasks at hand, but wanted to post that as it's something that happened that a sub like DMSI can hopefully help prevent from being such a common instance for me and others guys like me. Really dampers life when you're invisible to women. Failing to attract women, feeling like a failure as a result, feeling discarded and alone, the works. Sick of feeling unwanted and valueless by them.
Yeah I know "be confident, have value in yourself", that sounds great. But in the end, women are the gatekeepers to whether we are accepted by them or not. So like it or not, their ultimate valuation of you determines everything with them. You can love yourself and believe you're an amazing catch all you want, that has zero bearing on their opinion of you, it's still their decision. And it's a catch 22 to try to value myself and believe I'm attractive to women, when I'm clearly not based off their attitude and treatment of me. It seems delusional and unproductive, I prefer to deal with data from reality, just like with my business. If I operated off of "feels" instead, I'd no doubt be out of business.
The idea of DMSI somehow manifesting these two girls, who didn't appear to be attracted at all, but who are the kind I want, to come back to my life and be sexually attracted to me like I am to them for example, seems so far out of touch with reality it's very hard to really get behind. We'll see, I guess. It just seems like it's from one extreme to the other. And I don't really understand how that process happens, like me listening to a program, these girls somehow "knowing" even if we don't talk now, and then doing something about it. Seems a bit hokey to me. That's my impression of what manifesting is. Never mind how they somehow "know" I'm attracted to them, and because of that attraction for them, they become as attracted as I am to them, towards me. I don't know how that works exactly either to be real. We'll see how it all plays out, just seems off in the distance. At least in a few weeks V3.3 will be here to try out.
Rant done, back to work. Have a great day people.
P.S. Late Saturday night I had an attractive girl I know text me. I was shocked by that, doesn't really happen to me, that girls I find attractive make any kind of first move. I replied. Then she said she meant to text another guy with the same name, it was a mistake. Too good to be true I guess. Asked how I was doing, I replied and asked the same. No response. That was probably under the surface a bit and helped create the rant above, I bet. Just tired of this shit treatment from girls overall, never being good enough.
Late last night, was on my email. Mentor was referring to something on their IG. I clicked, and viewed it. But, while I was on IG, I was automatically logged into it.
I felt the urge to look at a couple girls I know, their profiles. I regretted it, as I usually do. Both didn't show interest in me in the past, despite my interest in them then and trying for them. We don't talk anymore, they froze me out as what happens usually with girls. Both seem happy and doing well, and look extremely hot.
Made me feel inadequate and alone, a failure for not getting them and wondering why, not being good enough, what's wrong with me that they're universally seeing and hating, blah blah. All those typical wonderful feelings guys so often feel. Kept me up a long time, and is still really bothering me now the next day.
Back to taking care of tasks at hand, but wanted to post that as it's something that happened that a sub like DMSI can hopefully help prevent from being such a common instance for me and others guys like me. Really dampers life when you're invisible to women. Failing to attract women, feeling like a failure as a result, feeling discarded and alone, the works. Sick of feeling unwanted and valueless by them.
Yeah I know "be confident, have value in yourself", that sounds great. But in the end, women are the gatekeepers to whether we are accepted by them or not. So like it or not, their ultimate valuation of you determines everything with them. You can love yourself and believe you're an amazing catch all you want, that has zero bearing on their opinion of you, it's still their decision. And it's a catch 22 to try to value myself and believe I'm attractive to women, when I'm clearly not based off their attitude and treatment of me. It seems delusional and unproductive, I prefer to deal with data from reality, just like with my business. If I operated off of "feels" instead, I'd no doubt be out of business.
The idea of DMSI somehow manifesting these two girls, who didn't appear to be attracted at all, but who are the kind I want, to come back to my life and be sexually attracted to me like I am to them for example, seems so far out of touch with reality it's very hard to really get behind. We'll see, I guess. It just seems like it's from one extreme to the other. And I don't really understand how that process happens, like me listening to a program, these girls somehow "knowing" even if we don't talk now, and then doing something about it. Seems a bit hokey to me. That's my impression of what manifesting is. Never mind how they somehow "know" I'm attracted to them, and because of that attraction for them, they become as attracted as I am to them, towards me. I don't know how that works exactly either to be real. We'll see how it all plays out, just seems off in the distance. At least in a few weeks V3.3 will be here to try out.
Rant done, back to work. Have a great day people.
P.S. Late Saturday night I had an attractive girl I know text me. I was shocked by that, doesn't really happen to me, that girls I find attractive make any kind of first move. I replied. Then she said she meant to text another guy with the same name, it was a mistake. Too good to be true I guess. Asked how I was doing, I replied and asked the same. No response. That was probably under the surface a bit and helped create the rant above, I bet. Just tired of this shit treatment from girls overall, never being good enough.
It's actually pure physics and pure behavioral psychology, I'd say, but I would not say it's that important for what I'm trying to express right now).
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