(10-04-2018, 12:59 PM)Infinite Wrote: I also wanna tell u guys this.. Ever since I stopped DMSI3.2... I am so scared of being alone. I always feel as if someone thing is behind me and watching me.. Sometimes I get scared when my phone rings. Like some ghost or something.. I know it's all in my head but you know.. It's not good.. Why is this happening? I am even scared to pee or brush my teeth alone. lol
I freaking out I understand but being in state of constant fear.. I do remember going thru this fearful state once on DMSI but it was for like a week only.. But now I have left DMSI. It's back?
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Something I didn't mention in my journal is that I saw and felt things the first few days when I first began to play dmsi a.
I was outside, and I saw this thing. The closest I can describe it would be like a very large, abouit four to five feet long by about a foot wide black bird wing. It was as if it was made up of small grains of sand. I saw it flying around about 30 feet away from me.
When I came home that day, I felt the presense of a being above my couch, where I had been sleeping while playing dmsi. I couldn't see it, but I knew that it was there.
It didn't scare me, but it was really abnormal. Are you still experiencing that fear?
Yes, I still do experience that fear but a little less but its still there. Maybe I am too busy with other stuff that's why I experience that but I am still scared tbh..
Sometimes when I am alone and in this fear mode I feel as if someone is behind the door and get this sudden flash of image where I am grabbed by it and then after that my fearful feelings amplifies like 5x..
These fear based feelings comes up when I am alone and there is nothing on my mind.. I mean its like my mind is only focused on fear and i couldn't even divert my focus from it.
Weird thing is that when I am in this state, it's as if every little things starts to looking or feeling scary.. Like Wooden furniture creaking all of a sudden or when I suddenly see my curtain moves and it looks as if someone is behind the curtains.. Stuff like that but when u look at it, its just a change in room temperature and wind which causes all these stuff... But my mind took all that as if its a paranormal stuff..
