USLM v5

[User_000]

I understand now, what i seek is something like spiritual an emotional fulfillment, something that has a purpose and is worthy as well as getting rid of attachments and dependence, just a few moments ago i got very angry about a mistake, i was angry at me for repeating it and this time the anger didn't left, the more i remembered the mistake the more i feel more anger and some sadness within myself, then i detach or try to do it and inmediately my mood improved but i still get angry when i remember it, my head is hurting from the anger and can't get that thought out of my mind, looks like breaking my hand isn't enough to quell the anger, i also need to stop hurting myself and stop insulting me. eventhough my mind understand it my emotions are not better than a child tantrum.