11-21-2018, 07:47 AM
(11-19-2018, 12:58 PM)Shannon Wrote: Ian, you can be independent and alpha and successful with women. You just need to do the right things to accomplish that. And the first thing to do is to remove the fear that stands in your way, which you are working on.
Understand that it is a process. The fear will fight for it's life. In the end, it will fail and be replaced. Just remember the tidal effect, basically taking steps forward. You're making progress, and that's all you could ask for. Keep going.
I feel the fear fighting for it's life! Every time i try to change, install a habit, read more etc, i have huge ego backlash the next day and "skip" that day which perpetuates the life i want to change.
Day 10:
My second day of the second cycle, today i feel absolutely awful, negative, anger, depression, hopelessness, full of pains all throughout my body. I am having lots of bad dreams the last two days, i remember that in one of them i was trying my best to protect a child (a female, which remembers a little cousin of mine) at all costs from somebody. I interpreted as my subconscious trying to protect my hurt inner-child from change. I absolutely SUCK at self-discipline, i often try to install good habits but failed every time. I feel like a leaf in the wind, going with my emotions, i really hope this program help me with this.
I am visualizing a lot the past few weeks and i noticed that when i do it, often i have an ego backlash the next day that makes me backslide back to my old habits, it's quite frustrating.
