02-27-2019, 01:02 AM
I tried to break down and but LTU5 today, but I checked, and the only computer we have no longer works so I wouldn’t be able to get it onto my device anyway. I looked up a couple of repair places that sell refurbished machines, so it won’t cost too horribly much to get the problem solved either way. So I’m still in the conundrum, get LTU before the price goes up and run it, or wait for the new USLM?
The only reason I’m hesitant is that as I mentioned, I’m trying to get some very concrete results out of USLM. While LTU has a more advanced version of USLM in it, I am not sure that all the other stuff won’t detract from the main goals that I’m trying to focus on. On the other hand, I’m also not sure that all that won’t make it work better either. I may go with it for the simple reason that I want to get it before the price goes up. We’ll see what a computer repair or a used machine costs.
Shannon mentioned something today that really kind of struck me. He said that he thought that something or someone really didn’t want him to get LTU5 out and that it had made things tougher on him. Well, I’ve had that same feeling for about the last decade. (Some of this is covered in my previous entries please bear with me) I know what field of work I’m supposed to be in. I was called to it many years ago, and my sense that it’s right hasn’t changed. The problem is that I have had the devil’s own time getting hired to do it. Over the years I have tested and interviewed with dozens of organizations, while gaining good experience in a field that is peripheral to the one I want to be in, but not where I want to be. For a very long time, I got absolutely nothing but rejection notices. I put it off to lack of self confidence or whatever, but I kept at it and did everything I could to improve my interviewing skills. Finally, a few years ago, I ran Manifest Your Perfect job, and life and behold, I just slid right through a hiring process like it was meant to be. Unfortunately, during on the job training, I suffered from, let’s call it brain fog and didn’t make it. About a year later, I ran the sub again, and got hired again. A similar thing happened, this time they needed me to get up to speed much faster than they normally do, and I wasn’t able to. It was kind of a blow to my confidence, but I’ve kept going since then.
Through that time, I occasionally suspected that I was being opposed by some kind of outside force (I do believe that there’s more in heaven and earth than is dreamt of in your philosophy). But I usually wrote that off as parinoia, and excuse making. I thought that at worst it was subconscious programming that lead me to fail.
I have tried a couple more times, but now I KNOW I can get hired. I have the interviewing skill, I have the background, and I’ve done it twice. So the last three times I’ve tried, I did really well on everything that was under my control, and was on my way to being hired but some increasingly off the wall stuff has happened to stop me. On one of them, I was taking a pre employment test, and at a crucial moment I got a sudden sharp stabbing itch in my eye, causing me to fail. (That was before USLM. And on another (just after starting USLM3) I actually had the top interview (confirmed by a member of my interview panel to a friend who works there) only to be told later that the panel had found me “unacceptable”. This all has stretched the bonds of coincidence to the point that I no longer think it is. I think that without USLM, I would still be thinking that this all happened because I wasn’t good enough.
I’m not entirely sure where I’m going to go with this, but there’s at least one take away. Twice an IML sub has helped to overpower whatever it was and get hired. It only worked as far as it was designed to, IE finding the job, but it did work.
The only reason I’m hesitant is that as I mentioned, I’m trying to get some very concrete results out of USLM. While LTU has a more advanced version of USLM in it, I am not sure that all the other stuff won’t detract from the main goals that I’m trying to focus on. On the other hand, I’m also not sure that all that won’t make it work better either. I may go with it for the simple reason that I want to get it before the price goes up. We’ll see what a computer repair or a used machine costs.
Shannon mentioned something today that really kind of struck me. He said that he thought that something or someone really didn’t want him to get LTU5 out and that it had made things tougher on him. Well, I’ve had that same feeling for about the last decade. (Some of this is covered in my previous entries please bear with me) I know what field of work I’m supposed to be in. I was called to it many years ago, and my sense that it’s right hasn’t changed. The problem is that I have had the devil’s own time getting hired to do it. Over the years I have tested and interviewed with dozens of organizations, while gaining good experience in a field that is peripheral to the one I want to be in, but not where I want to be. For a very long time, I got absolutely nothing but rejection notices. I put it off to lack of self confidence or whatever, but I kept at it and did everything I could to improve my interviewing skills. Finally, a few years ago, I ran Manifest Your Perfect job, and life and behold, I just slid right through a hiring process like it was meant to be. Unfortunately, during on the job training, I suffered from, let’s call it brain fog and didn’t make it. About a year later, I ran the sub again, and got hired again. A similar thing happened, this time they needed me to get up to speed much faster than they normally do, and I wasn’t able to. It was kind of a blow to my confidence, but I’ve kept going since then.
Through that time, I occasionally suspected that I was being opposed by some kind of outside force (I do believe that there’s more in heaven and earth than is dreamt of in your philosophy). But I usually wrote that off as parinoia, and excuse making. I thought that at worst it was subconscious programming that lead me to fail.
I have tried a couple more times, but now I KNOW I can get hired. I have the interviewing skill, I have the background, and I’ve done it twice. So the last three times I’ve tried, I did really well on everything that was under my control, and was on my way to being hired but some increasingly off the wall stuff has happened to stop me. On one of them, I was taking a pre employment test, and at a crucial moment I got a sudden sharp stabbing itch in my eye, causing me to fail. (That was before USLM. And on another (just after starting USLM3) I actually had the top interview (confirmed by a member of my interview panel to a friend who works there) only to be told later that the panel had found me “unacceptable”. This all has stretched the bonds of coincidence to the point that I no longer think it is. I think that without USLM, I would still be thinking that this all happened because I wasn’t good enough.
I’m not entirely sure where I’m going to go with this, but there’s at least one take away. Twice an IML sub has helped to overpower whatever it was and get hired. It only worked as far as it was designed to, IE finding the job, but it did work.
