Second day off after the first six day cycle of USLM2. The blended brain feeling is gone, and I woke up motivated and energized and all that fun stuff. I got some stuff done around the house that I had been putting off and my wife had been bugg....... I mean I knew I should be getting to. Actually got a lot done, and the place looks a bit better. I recently realized that the mess isn’t doing anything nice for my state of mind, and doesn’t match how someone who lives the life I want to keeps their living space.
Some of my negative thought patterns (pessimism and brutal self criticism) started creeping back into my head today. It wasn’t much and it lacked the emotional impact that it has had since I can remember. Just kind of enough to make me realize how GONE it has been lately.
That self criticism was my old programming, and my day to day mental reality for thirty some years, and it’s not going to go away completely over night. That’s ok, the progress toward that has been amazingly fast, so I’m not worried.
Some of my negative thought patterns (pessimism and brutal self criticism) started creeping back into my head today. It wasn’t much and it lacked the emotional impact that it has had since I can remember. Just kind of enough to make me realize how GONE it has been lately.
That self criticism was my old programming, and my day to day mental reality for thirty some years, and it’s not going to go away completely over night. That’s ok, the progress toward that has been amazingly fast, so I’m not worried.
