03-07-2022, 03:49 AM
Man it's been a while since I posted.
For anyone still following...
I haven't run UMS in about a month and started again last night
but here's what's up.
- Final interview for a job this week which would give me a 40% pay rise.
- Meditating daily, running every other day
- decreasingly afraid of the world but equally laziness has been holding me back.
I had what could only be described as very spiritual experiences which got me to the bottom of my fears. They showed me the imperfect mental models created as a child to deal with the world that settled inside me. What was amazing was how the brain had brought together a series of sounds, images, and sensations as a program instructing me to be afraid of being left out - some of these images and sensations were totally random - but make sense now. for example some foods were noted as remedies for the feeling of aloneness. This was what a baby's brain did to find safety amid an abundance of input and turned me into what i am.
I saw many things besides this and it will take more time to process. It's not every day you go beyond death and have a look around.
peace.
For anyone still following...
I haven't run UMS in about a month and started again last night
but here's what's up.
- Final interview for a job this week which would give me a 40% pay rise.
- Meditating daily, running every other day
- decreasingly afraid of the world but equally laziness has been holding me back.
I had what could only be described as very spiritual experiences which got me to the bottom of my fears. They showed me the imperfect mental models created as a child to deal with the world that settled inside me. What was amazing was how the brain had brought together a series of sounds, images, and sensations as a program instructing me to be afraid of being left out - some of these images and sensations were totally random - but make sense now. for example some foods were noted as remedies for the feeling of aloneness. This was what a baby's brain did to find safety amid an abundance of input and turned me into what i am.
I saw many things besides this and it will take more time to process. It's not every day you go beyond death and have a look around.
peace.
