12-08-2021, 02:05 AM
four days into stage 4 and I have done
- more or less nothing. I was hitting at about $70 a day average in my side hustle in the last week of St 3; things are much drier this week
- I've desperately forced myself to go out running again, my fitness has dropped massively
- I've begun wim hof again to improve my fitness
- I've begun battling my procrastination with a process I've developed based on six pillars of self esteem. When I'm stuck I do the following process of questioning based on themes
1. Theme: Self Consciousness
- What is happening right now, what do I feel, what am I trying to avoid (normally it's a sense of shame/inadequacy)
- What do I want to do right now? (normally i run through not wanting to work, but also if I'm conciouss enough, it's not that I don't want to work, it's that I really want to work and be successful but don't believe I will be successful; and if I'm truthful I don't really know that I won't be successful, that's just a mental creation.
2. Theme: Self Acceptance
- How can I honour my feelings, wants and needs? What can I do to accept what is happening within and what I think?
3. Theme: Self Assertiveness
- If I could assert my feelings, wants and needs minimally what would I do?
4: Theme: Self responsibility
- Acknowledge that I am responsible for everything in my life, nothing changes unless I pick it up and change it
That seems to break the deadlock and get me going
- more or less nothing. I was hitting at about $70 a day average in my side hustle in the last week of St 3; things are much drier this week
- I've desperately forced myself to go out running again, my fitness has dropped massively
- I've begun wim hof again to improve my fitness
- I've begun battling my procrastination with a process I've developed based on six pillars of self esteem. When I'm stuck I do the following process of questioning based on themes
1. Theme: Self Consciousness
- What is happening right now, what do I feel, what am I trying to avoid (normally it's a sense of shame/inadequacy)
- What do I want to do right now? (normally i run through not wanting to work, but also if I'm conciouss enough, it's not that I don't want to work, it's that I really want to work and be successful but don't believe I will be successful; and if I'm truthful I don't really know that I won't be successful, that's just a mental creation.
2. Theme: Self Acceptance
- How can I honour my feelings, wants and needs? What can I do to accept what is happening within and what I think?
3. Theme: Self Assertiveness
- If I could assert my feelings, wants and needs minimally what would I do?
4: Theme: Self responsibility
- Acknowledge that I am responsible for everything in my life, nothing changes unless I pick it up and change it
That seems to break the deadlock and get me going
