UMS. Let’s get at it

[Paul1131]

ME:  I’ve got a few things.  First, these things I’ve been writing.  I don’t have the insight and experience and then write about it, I have it while I’m writing.  The act of tapping it into a keyboard or phone puts me in the state where I can have the experience.  I’m writing it or at least thinking about it in words in my head whenever something happens when I’m not.  

Thanks for describing that Paul.  I do the very same thing, where I'll have a feeling, won't have words for it, but as I begin writing, I describe it like I'm talking to somebody.  I know that's why therapists listen a lot, since our best answers come from us, and not them.  When WE make the connections is when we see our possible solutions better.

I do the same thing when writing.  It's why I may write a whole paragraph, but upon realizing some misunderstanding on my part, I'll leave the wrong part.  It feels good being honest with myself plus finding better answers for questions I have.  I'm able to see growth in myself doing this, and I treasure that.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts here with us.  You're pretty insightful.

Thank you.  

ME:  I’ve been having a really odd mental thing happen.  I start to think of the ex who I uselessly messed up, and I get, like a quarter second into mentally vocalizing the name with the old emotion behind it.  Then it just disappears mid thought.  It’s extremely sudden, like someone reached out with a pin and popped a soap bubble.  It starts, then it just vanishes mid syllable.  I’m not consciously doing anything, it just happens.  It appears that my subconscious has internalized the message that that isn’t a useful thing to be doing, and it’s stopping it on its own.