11-04-2019, 01:35 PM
ME: I had an interview for a part time job in the field I want to be in today. Zero nervousness. I may have felt a little bit before hand, but none after I got in there and got doing it. Everything was flowing, I was smiling, I even made them laugh quite a bit throughout the whole thing.
That is a HUGE change. When I started taking this type of interview, I could barely talk through the fear. Something inside me was sending me signals that I was going to DIE. Even when I got more used to it I came off as wooden and robotic and still felt nervous.
I think my realization from this morning was the reason. I used to see anyone with that type of job as “better than me”. Now I don’t. I also used to have my ego super involved in wether I got each and every particular job. Now I don’t.
As to the “better than me” thing, the reason this threw me into a near fear of death state was that it got to my inner cave man. Back in the day, when a lower status male was being judged by higher status males, it was serious business. They could kick you out of the tribe or outright kill you if they didn’t like what they heard. That’s a base programming fear.
That is a HUGE change. When I started taking this type of interview, I could barely talk through the fear. Something inside me was sending me signals that I was going to DIE. Even when I got more used to it I came off as wooden and robotic and still felt nervous.
I think my realization from this morning was the reason. I used to see anyone with that type of job as “better than me”. Now I don’t. I also used to have my ego super involved in wether I got each and every particular job. Now I don’t.
As to the “better than me” thing, the reason this threw me into a near fear of death state was that it got to my inner cave man. Back in the day, when a lower status male was being judged by higher status males, it was serious business. They could kick you out of the tribe or outright kill you if they didn’t like what they heard. That’s a base programming fear.
