ME: I feel better today. After that anger fantasy thing, I felt emotionally exhausted for the rest of the night. I still feel tired this evening, but not as much so, and the morphine drip effect has kicked in a couple of times. There has been no repeat of the incident so far, and I don’t think there will be.
That relates to that dream I mentioned a few posts ago. I think the “me” in the dream was some fearful part of myself that was hiding on a very deep level where it thought it would be safe. The thing that came down was the real me coming to reclaim the level, and it forced the fearful part to go to the surface where it couldn’t long survive. That’s probably what that anger was.
That tells me that this version of FRM is able to help me dig down to levels that the previous ones couldn’t reach and actually eradicate the fears instead of forcing them to hide. That means that this probably won’t be as smooth feeling of a process as it has been, but it also means that in the end it will be more effective.
That relates to that dream I mentioned a few posts ago. I think the “me” in the dream was some fearful part of myself that was hiding on a very deep level where it thought it would be safe. The thing that came down was the real me coming to reclaim the level, and it forced the fearful part to go to the surface where it couldn’t long survive. That’s probably what that anger was.
That tells me that this version of FRM is able to help me dig down to levels that the previous ones couldn’t reach and actually eradicate the fears instead of forcing them to hide. That means that this probably won’t be as smooth feeling of a process as it has been, but it also means that in the end it will be more effective.
