ME: The anger and frustration I felt yesterday are gone. When I had that realization about where that comes from it started to abate, and now I remember feeling angry all the time, and I remember realizing the underlying fear that was causing it, but it doesn’t seem to have any emotional power anymore. It’s like I never had that thought/emotional pattern. I don’t know if this is permanent yet, he’ll, that would be shocking considering that’s been my primary fear and a major driver of my behavior for so long, but we have progress. It might even be a major leap forward. I feel a lot better, and I don’t just feel that everything is going to be great, I know it will.
The news from my wife didn’t hurt. This puts us ahead of the game by a five figure number that I’m not going to reveal here, but we’re a long way toward finally solving our financial problems just from this, plus it gives us the key to getting the rest of it done in the very near future.
I should have recognized the pattern here. The same thing happened repeatedly on USLM1. Something appears to go to crap, but then either a solution presents itself and everything either turns out OK, or as in this case better than expected. This time that happened on a very large scale though. It was different this time though. I didn’t even feel like freaking out. Throughout the entire thing, I had faith that I could get us through it. I did what I could on the normal level, and what do you know, fate/luck/the universe just provided the rest. The program has already paid for the two copies of itself many times over.
The news from my wife didn’t hurt. This puts us ahead of the game by a five figure number that I’m not going to reveal here, but we’re a long way toward finally solving our financial problems just from this, plus it gives us the key to getting the rest of it done in the very near future.
I should have recognized the pattern here. The same thing happened repeatedly on USLM1. Something appears to go to crap, but then either a solution presents itself and everything either turns out OK, or as in this case better than expected. This time that happened on a very large scale though. It was different this time though. I didn’t even feel like freaking out. Throughout the entire thing, I had faith that I could get us through it. I did what I could on the normal level, and what do you know, fate/luck/the universe just provided the rest. The program has already paid for the two copies of itself many times over.
