08-15-2019, 10:15 PM
ME: Today was weird. I had my interview for that new job, and I felt it went well. I had a good rapport with the panel, and I think I clearly demonstrated that I knew the business and am a good fit for the agency. After I was done, I stopped worrying about it. This is not how it used to be. I would second guess the heck out of myself and stew on it constantly. This time, I pretty much forgot about it the second I left the building. I haven’t worried about it since. I did well, I’ll hear soon enough if I did better than anybody else.
After that I went out and shopped fore some stuff with my wife kid and roommate. I may have experienced some morphine drip effect. About halfway through that I started feeling angry and irritable. It was pretty bad, worse than I’ve had it since a few weeks into LTU. This lasted for hours. I was snapping at my wife and refraining from snapping at my son. The tooth clenching that I got rid of on LTU came back a bit even. I was able to kind of analyze the feeling, and it was kind of like having a severe headache,but without any physical pain at all if that makes the slightest bit of sense to anyone. It almost feels like the opposite of the morphine drip effect. The feeling dissipated after we got home.
I am running a loop tonight, and I think I’m going to try doing the 3 on 7 off protocol for a few cycles. I am using the wife’s good Bose headphones instead of my earbuds tonight. The sound quality is much better, unfortunately I can’t use them at work. Not that I seem to have any issues executing on earbuds.
WIFE: She got a call from the headhunter who had helped her get her last job years ago. This was totally out of the blue. The guy didn’t know she was looking for a job. He said that he had a position that might be perfect for her, and actually pays a little better than what she was getting. Hushed updatedbher resume, and sent it to him yesterday, but we haven’t heard back yet. She’s kind of stewing about it, but she has only done two loops. I expect she’ll hear something tomorrow.
She hasnt reported thinking or feeling any different, but I am seeing some indications that she is a lot more positive. I don’t think she’s actually noticed yet.
After that I went out and shopped fore some stuff with my wife kid and roommate. I may have experienced some morphine drip effect. About halfway through that I started feeling angry and irritable. It was pretty bad, worse than I’ve had it since a few weeks into LTU. This lasted for hours. I was snapping at my wife and refraining from snapping at my son. The tooth clenching that I got rid of on LTU came back a bit even. I was able to kind of analyze the feeling, and it was kind of like having a severe headache,but without any physical pain at all if that makes the slightest bit of sense to anyone. It almost feels like the opposite of the morphine drip effect. The feeling dissipated after we got home.
I am running a loop tonight, and I think I’m going to try doing the 3 on 7 off protocol for a few cycles. I am using the wife’s good Bose headphones instead of my earbuds tonight. The sound quality is much better, unfortunately I can’t use them at work. Not that I seem to have any issues executing on earbuds.
WIFE: She got a call from the headhunter who had helped her get her last job years ago. This was totally out of the blue. The guy didn’t know she was looking for a job. He said that he had a position that might be perfect for her, and actually pays a little better than what she was getting. Hushed updatedbher resume, and sent it to him yesterday, but we haven’t heard back yet. She’s kind of stewing about it, but she has only done two loops. I expect she’ll hear something tomorrow.
She hasnt reported thinking or feeling any different, but I am seeing some indications that she is a lot more positive. I don’t think she’s actually noticed yet.
