08-01-2019, 10:35 PM
I’d like to thank Darthxedonias. I was reading his journal and what he said about knowing a lot of guys who were willing to settle for whatever life they fell into and just exist was inspirational. You see, I’ve been like that. For way too long. And it’s my own fault. I limited myself to what I believed I could get since I was a kid, and my beliefs were formed from a toxic childhood, bad parents, and a crapload of other stuff. I’ve actually done fairly well considering all that, but I’ve also dug myself into a life that I do not find satisfying, and isn’t anywhere near the one I wanted to live when I was nineteen and had a burst of optimism about life at the end of high school. I let myself slide into mediocrity by focusing on the wrong things and taking things that weren’t that important too hard. Shannon actually helped me come to that realization with our conversation on his journal discussion thread. (The one about how romantic partners screw up and abandon relationships with guys they perceive as more valuable than they deserve). I have wasted a good 15-20 years of building the life I want and becoming the extraordinary man I am meant to be. Well SCREW THAT! I am that guy, and I’m making my life match that from here on in.
(Loop in progress here guys, and it’s effecting me).
I originally got this sub to get out of financial trouble. Well, that’s not going to do it anymore. This is allowing me to go much higher than out of trouble. The life I want involves having a considerable amount of money, and so I will get it. I don’t quite know what that looks like yet, but I still have the sense that my subconscious knows exactly what it’s doing and I need only trust myself to get there.
The wife is doing her first loop right now as well. We started at the exact same second to symbolize being in synch, and I think maybe some of the euphoria I’m feeling might be us somehow resonating with each other. I will ask her how she felt as soon as the loop ends and keep you all advised.
Sorry if this isn’t as coherent as my stuff usually is.
(Loop in progress here guys, and it’s effecting me).
I originally got this sub to get out of financial trouble. Well, that’s not going to do it anymore. This is allowing me to go much higher than out of trouble. The life I want involves having a considerable amount of money, and so I will get it. I don’t quite know what that looks like yet, but I still have the sense that my subconscious knows exactly what it’s doing and I need only trust myself to get there.
The wife is doing her first loop right now as well. We started at the exact same second to symbolize being in synch, and I think maybe some of the euphoria I’m feeling might be us somehow resonating with each other. I will ask her how she felt as soon as the loop ends and keep you all advised.
Sorry if this isn’t as coherent as my stuff usually is.
