E3 is kicking my ass.
Woke up this morning getting multiple insights about my former post, the dynamic, the pattern. I realized falsities. My own hang ups and what not. And I wasnt reeling against it, no; I was pretty much in a state of hopefullness, an "aha!" Moment.
Im running a loop right now. And im feeling tge sub pointing out, identifying snd working like it has a 1000 arms. Imalso hellbent on dealing with all if this. I mean, enoygh is enough with the hiding, walking away and sheltering. My drive and motivation of dealing with this is shot up, and I will get better after this.
Its also showing me, that, by this magnifiedness, that e3 has indeed touched a nerve, and is something part of the process.
Edit1: im moving on. Like im realizing that what choice I make is a huge factor. Giving in, going back? No. Setting boundaries, discipline, withstanding the storm? It will bleed over in my interactions and strengthens me. Its a huge relief knowing that they dont have the best interest in mind to begin with. I can finally breath. Let ums/e3 do its thing.
I still see these compensating urges, but the impact is way less.the chapter has been closed. Calibrate and transition, I can handle this.
Woke up this morning getting multiple insights about my former post, the dynamic, the pattern. I realized falsities. My own hang ups and what not. And I wasnt reeling against it, no; I was pretty much in a state of hopefullness, an "aha!" Moment.
Im running a loop right now. And im feeling tge sub pointing out, identifying snd working like it has a 1000 arms. Imalso hellbent on dealing with all if this. I mean, enoygh is enough with the hiding, walking away and sheltering. My drive and motivation of dealing with this is shot up, and I will get better after this.
Its also showing me, that, by this magnifiedness, that e3 has indeed touched a nerve, and is something part of the process.
Edit1: im moving on. Like im realizing that what choice I make is a huge factor. Giving in, going back? No. Setting boundaries, discipline, withstanding the storm? It will bleed over in my interactions and strengthens me. Its a huge relief knowing that they dont have the best interest in mind to begin with. I can finally breath. Let ums/e3 do its thing.
I still see these compensating urges, but the impact is way less.the chapter has been closed. Calibrate and transition, I can handle this.
