07-19-2014, 01:36 PM
I'm back from the festivity I have been, which I chose as a test platform, because that is where I wasn't able to go over ten years ago, because the anxiety was too intense. I never tried it again.
Ok. I was able to go there. That's big. Because of a lot of negative memories are and were connected with it.
I experienced not nearly the bad feeling I had back then. I felt sometimes a bit out of place, but it's not too bad. I can tackle that rest of anxiety with other methods. I think without NSFM it would have been worse, but it was ok. Women are definitely staring at me, usually from about 30-50 m away and seek eye contact, which is weird.
The last days I have been busy thinking about what to do next. I listed my options, made plans and checked which actions would be the most profitable for me. I have some great ideas in the realm of computer science, which needs further study and research, but if doable, should be profitable. However there are alternative routes that have appeared via people I know.
Ok. I was able to go there. That's big. Because of a lot of negative memories are and were connected with it.
I experienced not nearly the bad feeling I had back then. I felt sometimes a bit out of place, but it's not too bad. I can tackle that rest of anxiety with other methods. I think without NSFM it would have been worse, but it was ok. Women are definitely staring at me, usually from about 30-50 m away and seek eye contact, which is weird.
The last days I have been busy thinking about what to do next. I listed my options, made plans and checked which actions would be the most profitable for me. I have some great ideas in the realm of computer science, which needs further study and research, but if doable, should be profitable. However there are alternative routes that have appeared via people I know.
Focus and push through. (Uncle B)
