03-23-2017, 07:13 PM
I went through Transformation Mastery. It's heavily focused on being aware of your body and mind and working to let go of the subconscious patterns and triggers that hold you in a place of scarcity, fuck up your life, and keep you from true abundance. I'm going to apply it. It's really all I can do, so it's worth it.
Yes, of course I'm still doing my loops. At this point it's just habit to do the loops.
I talked with one of my friends today about my situation, he already knew I was on the sub. He gave me plenty of bits of advice. It doesn't sound like he believes it's my subconscious that caused the same pattern with girls in my life. But after going through TM, I'm sure it is without a doubt. The triggers described and the patterns described are exactly what I experience at certain points in my interactions with attractive girls.
I know that I have a lot to let go of. I wonder if my runs of E1 and E2 were worth my time and discipline. What bugs me now is that Shannon could run his nearly fullproof models to let me know if DMSI is a waste of my time, but he won't. So I'm pretty much still in the dark. But that's fine, I'll find a way.
I haven't gotten quality sleep this week. I keep waking up in the middle of the night with thoughts coming to mind. Even getting to sleep, I really have to work to quiet my mind.
Even if DMSI is a waste of time, I'll be doing TM so I'll still make progress either way.
Yes, of course I'm still doing my loops. At this point it's just habit to do the loops.
I talked with one of my friends today about my situation, he already knew I was on the sub. He gave me plenty of bits of advice. It doesn't sound like he believes it's my subconscious that caused the same pattern with girls in my life. But after going through TM, I'm sure it is without a doubt. The triggers described and the patterns described are exactly what I experience at certain points in my interactions with attractive girls.
I know that I have a lot to let go of. I wonder if my runs of E1 and E2 were worth my time and discipline. What bugs me now is that Shannon could run his nearly fullproof models to let me know if DMSI is a waste of my time, but he won't. So I'm pretty much still in the dark. But that's fine, I'll find a way.
I haven't gotten quality sleep this week. I keep waking up in the middle of the night with thoughts coming to mind. Even getting to sleep, I really have to work to quiet my mind.
Even if DMSI is a waste of time, I'll be doing TM so I'll still make progress either way.
