Tiger's Blood - UMS v2 (Life Tune up now) - Boxing, Discipline, Perseverance

[Raykon]

UMS v2 does have FRM full version in it.  The only thing different is the goal of the program.  In OF, FRM is pointed at "all fears".  In UMS, FRM is pointed at those fears that stand in the way of you achieving UMS.  FRM is the same in either case.

You didn't follow the instructions.

I know I didn't follow the instructions & I've seen some great positive changes from UM v2 so far, & I bet if I stayed on it the changes would be even more profound. 

But yeah like you said, the fears being pointed at "all fears" is what I believe I need in my case, Because I have allot of worry and stress type personality, I believe my mom had allot of stress and trauma when I was in the womb. 

She's a constant worrier, and is always in her head. I'm the same way. I have become better over the years, from using subliminals, and becoming more grounded and meditation & stuff. 

OF v3 made me fearless in all aspects, UMv2 made me a better man in allot of ways , in ways that OF v3 didn't do for me, but I felt some fears coming back, like I didn't feel as solid as I did on OF v3. and I don't have months to wait for this program to take full affect. 

I'm at a point now where I need to do what is going to work for me in the short term, because my Landscaping business is most busy in the summer, and I am also on a roll right now, and I can't wait for me to pass any resistance, or wait the nesseccary time needed for me to feel as solid as I do on OF v3, on UM v2. \

It's a difficult decision for me to switch programs, I really like how UM v2 is making me socialize better with people, and communicate better, i'm very conflicted right now. 

But I ran OF v3 last night, and I can tell today how I feel more relaxed. That fear being gone makes me less in my head and I love that feeling. 

I approached a bartender today that was my server too, just went up to her and was honest told her im a little nervous right now but I wanted to come talk to her (something along those lines)

I'm not sure how much of a difference it makes to point the FRM at all fears vs focusing it on fears that stop you from gaining monetary wealth. But for someone with an anxious personality from a young age, thats been propelled even worse by a mother who constantly lives in fear and projected her fears onto me, every day of my life. 

OF v3 is exactly what I need. & I'm grateful for it.

[Shannon]

I was saying that you did not follow the instructions using OFv3. This is why you should.

[Raykon]

I was saying that you did not follow the instructions using OFv3.  This is why you should.

I don't understand? Are you saying that If I used it for 6 months, the fear wouldn't regenerate as fast? or at all?

[Shannon]

I was saying that you did not follow the instructions using OFv3.  This is why you should.

I don't understand? Are you saying that If I used it for 6 months, the fear wouldn't regenerate as fast? or at all?

I'm saying that if you used it for 6 months, as the instructions specify, you would have most likely worked through the fears you are having to go back on OFv3 for.  Now you have to start that 6 months over again.  I don't know if 6 months once will kill all your fears, but I do know that the instructions are calculated through the models because that's how we find what is necessary to achieve the program's goals.

[Raykon]

I was saying that you did not follow the instructions using OFv3.  This is why you should.

I don't understand? Are you saying that If I used it for 6 months, the fear wouldn't regenerate as fast? or at all?

I'm saying that if you used it for 6 months, as the instructions specify, you would have most likely worked through the fears you are having to go back on OFv3 for.  Now you have to start that 6 months over again.  I don't know if 6 months once will kill all your fears, but I do know that the instructions are calculated through the models because that's how we find what is necessary to achieve the program's goals.

My fears were coming back but not to the same level of intensity as before using OF v3.

[Shannon]

I was saying that you did not follow the instructions using OFv3.  This is why you should.

I don't understand? Are you saying that If I used it for 6 months, the fear wouldn't regenerate as fast? or at all?

I'm saying that if you used it for 6 months, as the instructions specify, you would have most likely worked through the fears you are having to go back on OFv3 for.  Now you have to start that 6 months over again.  I don't know if 6 months once will kill all your fears, but I do know that the instructions are calculated through the models because that's how we find what is necessary to achieve the program's goals.

My fears were coming back but not to the same level of intensity as before using OF v3.

I know.  But given time, they probably would have.  Fear is self regenerating, so you have to kill the root.  It's like a cockroach.  If you leave any, they'll come back.

[Raykon]

So I've been using OF v3 , 2-3 loops per day 3 days on 2 days off. Hybrid format.

I can feel my mind is becoming powerful again. My fears are going away again, and I'm feeling better.

Whatever it was, whether it was resistance, UM v2 probably needed more time to make me good.

But fortunately OF v3 making me feel really good again. I am also focused on my goals, still thinking about business.

Been going to the gym, I had lost some weight when I came back to Vancouver 2 months from Colombia, I was not eating properly & I was only doing work outs at home with dumbbells.

Now that I've been back in the gym the last 2-3 weeks, And eating good again, My weight is back to what it was before I left Colombia.

I feel really good when I see myself in the mirror. Most of my life I was really skinny & not happy with my physique I was very insecure about it. I was SUPER skinny. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but I was quite short too so I always felt inferior, and felt like I was often overlooked by some women.

Quite the opposite now, I feel like attraction comes with ease now.

I worked on self developement for a long time to get to this point, And I've progressively seen more progress in this regard as the years went on. But now I'm at an all time high when it comes to how I feel about myself,

Overcome Fear v3 has me feeling & walking around like a true alpha. Even more powerful then AM v6.

In the gym I walk with such power & aura, but not in a douche bag type way, just pure confidence.

It's pretty cool, I only saw one other person in the busy gym that I felt had that power / confidence in his walk at the gym the other day when I was there.

In the past, When I had increased confidence from DMSI or whatever, I noticed that when walking by other Alpha's I would feel like afraid that they are going to be threathened by my confidence, or something along those lines, or maybe feel like i'm being confrontational. It was as if I was acting like an alpha but wasn't truly alpha.

Now it's at a core level. I don't have those thoughts anymore when walking around, I feel very grounded when walking around.

Beautiful women in the gym & I am working out around them without feeling insecure or shy . I used to feel like that sometimes at the gym in the past. (In Colombia on OF v2 I also never felt that insecurity at the gym around women.)

Allot of these changes started to happen during OF v2, but I feel like OF v3 is solidifying it & intensifying my feelings of self esteem, confidence ect.

It's a good feeling.

I am also less outcome dependant, I don't give a fuck about the results with the women I'm talking too, my ex in Colombia & this other women in Vancouver. I do care about the outcome but I don't feel any fear or anxiety if they give me a bad response or something, like I don't feel emotionally invested or outcome dependant to the extent that I was all my life.

So I can now respond without fear, and they can sense it. It's a good feeling. I used to be the type to overthink every message, then re read the entire convo like obsessively analyzing it & seeing If I did good or not. & ask my friends about it.

I was pretty fucked up in high school with women & stuff. I was social & popular in school but I was very insecure & especially around women.

I also had an epiphany the other day that I became more insecure & depressed when I was a child because when I was 11 years old my mom gave away my Dog, that I had for a year, for no reason. She gave it away because of her own mental issues.

I remember going to school the next day with severe depression, and heart ache as if someone I loved died, or something like that. It was probably the worst experience I've ever felt. I loved that dog, and I used to have dreams of having a dog when I was a kid & I would wake up & not have one.

So when I finally had one It felt amazing.

"Honey was the name forever embedded in my brain, you're gone never coming back & I'm the one to blame ,
it was wrong of me to take you from your mother oh brother karma jacked a father of his daughter"

I wrote that when I was in high school. I forget the rest.

I am still not fully healed form this trauma, but I have had two experiences that helped me heal a bit.

I remember 7 years after it happened, I did a healing technique & I started bawling my eyes out, I had thought that I was already over it, but I wasn't. I never cried , that healing technique brought the tears out.

Then like 5 years later, I wrote a letter to my mom & confronted her about what happened while crying.

I think I need to talk to a therapist or someone. or do EPHRA.

EDIT: Oh and I have had avoidant personality disorder symptoms for many years now, 5 years or so. I would try and avoid most social situations, like family parties, or meeting up with my friends. I had a GF for 2 years though so that was nice. And being with her helped me overcome allot my anxietys because I had to be in a state of meditation all the time when I was with her we lived together, and that state of meditation & letting things be, translated over into my business too. OF v3 is the only thing I noticed that has taken this fear away. I don't have this fear when I'm on this subliminal. on UM v2 I had it. So it was making me not want to do things, and making me not want to work.

[Shannon]

I wonder how much of "Avoidant Personality Disorder" is really just "Deep Seated Subconscious Fear".

[Raykon]

I wonder how much of "Avoidant Personality Disorder" is really just "Deep Seated Subconscious Fear".

Very likely that's the case, what do you think the fear is? Like the root?

Also, I accidently did 6 loops last night of Hybrid OF v3. 

I woke up, felt a little headache for 30 minutes. But I cleaned up my house, & started noticing symptoms of fear removal. 

Like I messaged people , & this women, and just a general feeling that the 6 loops is actually working. 

I feel a slight amount of brain fog, but it's not debilitating. 

I feel like the 6 loops is actually more effective then 3 loops or 2 loops is for me.

Should I continue 6 loops, or try 4-5 loops? 

Is me seeing some positive results from 6 loops mean , more is better for me? I also have that mental high / calmness feeling that I haven't had in a few weeks.

It could ALSO be because it's been more days since I used UM v2, so the turbulence is fading away more and more each day.

[Raykon]

I walked my dogs to the store & I noticed that they aren't pulling me anymore, they are walking beside me or behind me.
(German Shepherd & I have a Presa Canario / Pit bull mix as well, (two big dogs)

I also feel the opposite of apathy, I feel allot of emotion, but not in a bad way. It feels like my Heart Chakra is activated or something like that. It's like in my upper chest area. I feel the emotion without anxiety.

It kinda feels like I might be dealing with something, but a warm feeling is preventing from me feeling negative emotions, that might be the case.

[Raykon]

Yeah I'm pretty sure that's what Is happening, I have a urge to release, I am not yawning as much as I would like though but occasionally I am & feel slightly better when I do. It feels like I have a body high.

edit: Starting to yawn a bit more, It feels cathartic.

[Raykon]

Back on UMS v2 Stage 1, Day 1

So my business in Medellin didn't end up working out, due to issues with finding a proper shipping company for what I needed to get back to Canada. It's a long story but yeah it didn't work out.

Me & my Gf in Colombia broke up, Due to my fault, I got really drunk & said a bunch of needy and stupid shit, 2-3 times. I kinda let myself get a bit crazy for the last few weeks I was their.

Anyways I learned allot from the experience.

I'm back in Vancouver.

Currently doing a mandatory 14 Day quarintine.

I am starting boxing on the 23rd. I am staying sober from Alcohol, Wacky Tobaccy & everything else.

Currently taking Ashwagandha as a supplement. Eating good food. & Training to get my Cardio in good shape.

My goal this year is to have 1 or 2 boxing fights by the end of the year 2022

Today was my first day of Training, I did 2.2KM non stop, started off with a really fast jog, then slowed it down to regular jogging pace, with my German Shepherd

I also did a 10 minute Ab work out at home before I ran.

I am also doing Ice Cold Water immersion every day now, I'm on day 2 of that.

I may get into MMA as well in the near future, but my focus is Boxing for now. The place I will be training boxing also teaches Wrestling so I may join that as well in the future.

Basically my goal is to become mentally very strong & healthy, Physically Strong with good Cardio, & accomplish some of the goals I've always wanted to accomplish. I've always wanted to fight in Combat sports. I've only ever competed in Wrestling, & I did well.

I have been watching & listening to allot of Mike Tyson Interviews / Documentaries & his mentality is very inspiring to me. I look up to him now. He's actually fighting again & training now.

I have been depressed the last few weeks, because of me & my GF breaking up & how it's affected me. also coming to a Cold rainy Vancouver that I dislike very much. (I love Tropical Environment's, I hate the rain).

I Decided instead of letting myself drown in a pit of sadness & grief, To use this as motivation to better myself.

I am doing a dopamine Detox, Eliminating all Dopamine spiking activities, such as Music, Games, Social Media.

Basically I'm living like I'm in jail kind of. It trains your brain to desire / want to do boring stuff, because the boring stuff becomes fun again.

The only thing I am allowed myself to do is cook, exercise, & watch Learning videos on Youtube, Like motivation videos or videos that educate.

Wish me luck on my journey. I will keep you all update when I /if I end up competing.

[Raykon]

Went for another 2.2 km Run after a nap & meal, with my Other Dog (Presa Canario/pitbull) He pushed me even harder, this time was more challenging because he didnt stop to poo like my other dog. so no breaks.

Cardio has always been an issue for me, I Never liked doing it. Only in sports I liked it. I was never a runner.

I'm going to take this goal one day a time, if I do something every day eventually the progress will show. I really don't want to fail. I feel like if I fail at this it will take a big hit on my pride. My confidence isn't very high right now because of the break up.

I do feel allot better after having went on this second run. My mental feeling I have right now is much better then it was before I went on the run.

I have a very extreme personality & I really hope I become addicted to Cardio & Boxing. That's my intention. To do it everyday & hopefully it becomes an Addiction/Habit. I love Sparring, & Fighting, But I never liked the Cardio aspect of Martial Arts.

I'm trying to do the things I Hate doing & become more disciplined, like I really dislike going in the Ice bath, but the feeling afterwards is good. I researched it & it raises your dopamine levels 2.5 X the baseline for 3-4 hours.

I am going to come out of this break up a stronger & better man, I won't let this break me, I really love her, It's hard for me to stop caring about someone I am very intense in my feelings for people.

[Raykon]

Decided that the program I| should be doing is Life tune Up. So i'm buying stage 1 right now.

Maybe I've been getting TID from Life Tune Up that's why I've been developing new / better habits lately.