12-31-2015, 12:26 AM
Side effects of AM, hmmmm..... Let me think it through...
Loneliness. Through AMs run I am lonely. No. Not "being alone," but mostly in the sate of "I am alone."
Realistic point of view. It might be caused from AM6's wisdom improvement, or maturity that grows through repetition of AM. Regardless this makes me not "optimistic" nor "pessimistic," rather, realistic. Approaching problems head on, and even if it fails or not, it doesn't matter. Its just "is." Thus, this make more upfront towards "wishful thinking." I hate, object and decline and refuse any "I hope," "I should've," "If I'm," to the point of having major debate with people.
Aggressiveness. The same with Dzemoo, I want to beat people badly. Usually I'm not the fighting type, but now I realized how my angered arouse soo f*cking easy. I want to beat people to a pulp, but notice the word "want." I'm not throwing punches tho, rather, I beat them up with verbal argument that broke their heart and logic. This is bad, I understand.
Others are mental lagging, restlessness and "inside battle" of the want(s) and desire(s).
Loneliness. Through AMs run I am lonely. No. Not "being alone," but mostly in the sate of "I am alone."
Realistic point of view. It might be caused from AM6's wisdom improvement, or maturity that grows through repetition of AM. Regardless this makes me not "optimistic" nor "pessimistic," rather, realistic. Approaching problems head on, and even if it fails or not, it doesn't matter. Its just "is." Thus, this make more upfront towards "wishful thinking." I hate, object and decline and refuse any "I hope," "I should've," "If I'm," to the point of having major debate with people.
Aggressiveness. The same with Dzemoo, I want to beat people badly. Usually I'm not the fighting type, but now I realized how my angered arouse soo f*cking easy. I want to beat people to a pulp, but notice the word "want." I'm not throwing punches tho, rather, I beat them up with verbal argument that broke their heart and logic. This is bad, I understand.
Others are mental lagging, restlessness and "inside battle" of the want(s) and desire(s).
