08-09-2017, 07:56 AM
In my bloom week currently and I feel a strong urge to move to Europe for a few months at least. Maybe Germany or Austria or Poland, where I don't know the language. Life as a stay-at-home online businessman in Singapore has been way too comfortable. I can feel my brain falling asleep everyday. I am expanding my business to new marketplaces and to Europe but I feel literally zero need or urgency to do so. I have to drag myself to do it everyday. When I was in London, I felt so much pressure because as an Asian I was the minority and nobody liked me. I imagined that if I lived there I would feel so much drive just to learn and survive.
I watched RSD Tyler's video about what we can realistically achieve in life. We could achieve so many things theoretically, but whether we would or not is another thing entirely. Reproductive pressure is a powerful biological motivator for action, and we as humans are wired to do the minimum to survive. That is what is happening to me now, I can feel my motivation going as soon as my business became stable. It's nowhere like it was when I was still employed and trying to get this thing off the ground so I could quit my job.
I want this reproductive pressure back in my life. I feel that moving to Europe will be a good way. Sure there can be much better sources of motivation, for eg if I have found a calling that I feel compelled to dedicate my life to, but I don't have that now. I am getting ideas about going to university in Germany since it's free..... I can take up a product design course, I can learn to design better products for my business. It will be fun.
Or maybe I'm just too bored since I can't do any exercise because of my wound from the surgery two weeks ago. Still 2 weeks till I can go back to dancing and playing tennis, and starting BJJ. So bored!!
I watched RSD Tyler's video about what we can realistically achieve in life. We could achieve so many things theoretically, but whether we would or not is another thing entirely. Reproductive pressure is a powerful biological motivator for action, and we as humans are wired to do the minimum to survive. That is what is happening to me now, I can feel my motivation going as soon as my business became stable. It's nowhere like it was when I was still employed and trying to get this thing off the ground so I could quit my job.
I want this reproductive pressure back in my life. I feel that moving to Europe will be a good way. Sure there can be much better sources of motivation, for eg if I have found a calling that I feel compelled to dedicate my life to, but I don't have that now. I am getting ideas about going to university in Germany since it's free..... I can take up a product design course, I can learn to design better products for my business. It will be fun.
Or maybe I'm just too bored since I can't do any exercise because of my wound from the surgery two weeks ago. Still 2 weeks till I can go back to dancing and playing tennis, and starting BJJ. So bored!!
