02-12-2019, 08:29 AM
(02-12-2019, 06:52 AM)Darwin Wrote: So last night, as a part of my daily goals I was determined to face up to some realities I've been avoiding for a while; one of these meant putting out a profile of things I've been working on for a couple of years. This might sound simple, but in terms of my greatest insecurities and fears, being exposed and mocked by people is at the top, so when I did it - I almost vomited. I spent about an hour after that in bed looking at the ceiling and then whacked on LTU with my sleep phones.
When I woke up my attitude to all of this had changed quite a lot and I had a better perspective on it all. Over the course of today though I've been hyper sensitive about people looking down on me - so long as I have my headphones on it's not overwhelming. Assuming that no toxic energy is getting through I'm guessing this extra sensitivity is a clearing out of the fear of public shaming, bullying and mockery. If it's not that then I wonder if it's one of the issues with the previous LTU I noticed which is, you become so nice, happy and playful that people don't respect you.
Shannon you will know better but if it's the latter then having something in either the aura or otherwise about having a presence of dignity, a commanding/authoritative presence, or self respect and dignity might be helpful - ( I don't know why I'm suggesting this, of course I know you're not going to add this in the script now, and it's probably already taken care of somewhere - but just a thought to offer anyway).
Sounds like you need to connect with your anger. There lay the boundary setting that will make you think less of what people think of you and owning up to yourself.
