01-14-2022, 11:54 AM
Still listening away with 3 loops us per day on. I’m going through somethings emotionally as you can expect after a break up. I know it happened some time ago but these things really stick with me for some reason. Some days are good and some days are bad recently it’s been mostly bad. I’ve been feeling really burned out on all this self improvement and motivational things but Today has been a rare good day.
I’ve just been thinking about all the good times we had and was really feeling like I lost someone good, and it really hurts. But at the same time i take a good honest look at myself and see all the flaws and things I did wrong, all the things I let slide because I thought i had a safe relationship and didn’t need to worry about it ending.
In a brutally honest way, I feel like I wasn’t really a man during my entire life, I was just someone who went whichever way the wind moved him. Didn’t take the necessary steps to secure myself and all aspects of my life. My job my finances my health,
I’m doing all those things now, but it’s just sad that it took breaking my heart to build my spine
I’ve just been thinking about all the good times we had and was really feeling like I lost someone good, and it really hurts. But at the same time i take a good honest look at myself and see all the flaws and things I did wrong, all the things I let slide because I thought i had a safe relationship and didn’t need to worry about it ending.
In a brutally honest way, I feel like I wasn’t really a man during my entire life, I was just someone who went whichever way the wind moved him. Didn’t take the necessary steps to secure myself and all aspects of my life. My job my finances my health,
I’m doing all those things now, but it’s just sad that it took breaking my heart to build my spine
