Greenduck,
I can completely relate to giving up "you" for your mom's well-being. And the guilt trying to separate from her. My own mother is still a full-time alcoholic, still swimming in circles emotionally and relationally, and seeing the failed attempts at change. Guess what I learned? The very same, even fighting for it in times past.
I did E2 for 3 months recently, and I had some clear emotional revelations at times. My actions make more sense now. And I'd not be where I am now without E2's help. I'm on USLM3 now, but I'm finding I'm needing emotional "training" once again, so I'm wondering about E3 myself now.
By the way, I've read emotional healing books heavily in my 30+ years of recovery seeking. My main reason I've avoided them for maybe 3 years now is FEAR and old subconscious standards. So, I learn, and deny. Learn...and deny/avoid the truth, even creating stories why I "shouldn't" change.
I thank my Rule 4 character for IML. Fear is a dream killer
Oh, and BTW, I vote to have elements of ASC put into E3. Not believing in myself, and seeking others to do this for me, feels like victim mentality crap to me. Having faith in my own abilities IS emotional health.
I can completely relate to giving up "you" for your mom's well-being. And the guilt trying to separate from her. My own mother is still a full-time alcoholic, still swimming in circles emotionally and relationally, and seeing the failed attempts at change. Guess what I learned? The very same, even fighting for it in times past.
I did E2 for 3 months recently, and I had some clear emotional revelations at times. My actions make more sense now. And I'd not be where I am now without E2's help. I'm on USLM3 now, but I'm finding I'm needing emotional "training" once again, so I'm wondering about E3 myself now.
By the way, I've read emotional healing books heavily in my 30+ years of recovery seeking. My main reason I've avoided them for maybe 3 years now is FEAR and old subconscious standards. So, I learn, and deny. Learn...and deny/avoid the truth, even creating stories why I "shouldn't" change.
I thank my Rule 4 character for IML. Fear is a dream killer
Oh, and BTW, I vote to have elements of ASC put into E3. Not believing in myself, and seeking others to do this for me, feels like victim mentality crap to me. Having faith in my own abilities IS emotional health.
I want to be FREE!
