11-26-2015, 10:23 AM
Don't worry so much about it. If you put too much importance into it, it will only make it harder. You have to get to a point where masturbating is no big deal.
I know what you're going through. When I was growing up I was lonely and depressed. I used masturbating as a way to make myself feel better about my shit life. I would do it everyday just to try to feel normal. I would try to be a good guy as much as I could and I wondered why no girl were interested in me, I wasn't popular and had almost no friends (yes I know it's lame, but it is what it is) . It's so hard to break when you associate it with something. It's a struggle when you're in withdrawal. You get headaches and cramps in your balls. And it's so difficult to be experiencing negative things and have to hold yourself back from masturbating.
Even now, I just got hit with some knowledge that is making me feel like shit right now. And the thought of going home and masturbating crossed my mind. But I've been through this situation before and honestly masturbating isn't as pleasurable as it used to be, and the mental brain fog that it causes isn't worth it.
I've been trying to quit for years, but I've only made progress in the last 2 years. When I do masturbate it's usually when I'm depressed and make a conscious decision to do it because I don't care. Honestly these days I am quite depressed and lonely these days, but the temptation is gone.
Now instead of looking for ways to medicate my pain and negative feelings, I try to improve myself so I don't feel them in the first place. Using subs, tapping, etc.
Sorry for taking up so much space in your journal, just wanted you to know that it's difficult but you're not alone.
I know what you're going through. When I was growing up I was lonely and depressed. I used masturbating as a way to make myself feel better about my shit life. I would do it everyday just to try to feel normal. I would try to be a good guy as much as I could and I wondered why no girl were interested in me, I wasn't popular and had almost no friends (yes I know it's lame, but it is what it is) . It's so hard to break when you associate it with something. It's a struggle when you're in withdrawal. You get headaches and cramps in your balls. And it's so difficult to be experiencing negative things and have to hold yourself back from masturbating.
Even now, I just got hit with some knowledge that is making me feel like shit right now. And the thought of going home and masturbating crossed my mind. But I've been through this situation before and honestly masturbating isn't as pleasurable as it used to be, and the mental brain fog that it causes isn't worth it.
I've been trying to quit for years, but I've only made progress in the last 2 years. When I do masturbate it's usually when I'm depressed and make a conscious decision to do it because I don't care. Honestly these days I am quite depressed and lonely these days, but the temptation is gone.
Now instead of looking for ways to medicate my pain and negative feelings, I try to improve myself so I don't feel them in the first place. Using subs, tapping, etc.
Sorry for taking up so much space in your journal, just wanted you to know that it's difficult but you're not alone.
