(10-10-2015, 04:29 PM)templecity Wrote: Looks like you are making progress and, if anything, you have a clean bathroom and bedroomI wish I could clean and throw away all of my clutter.
Well Yeah Did a lot of stuff
Like I repaired my computer
Usually Clean My bathroom and Bedroom.
I do my laundry...
Also I take "True focus" daily its kinda helps me. Motivate to do stuff.
People Usually become addicted to stuff cause they have low Dopamine Level. So this stuff helps me get so little dopamine
Low Dopamine=Low Confidence=Much Likely To get addicted...
I have really High Hopes from Shannon Subs cause if this doesnt work then nothing will..
I read How "Patti" was facing so much problem leaving her smoking habits and I read her journal and every advice Shannon gave to her and I think my case is just like hers.
I have waited like 2 years for this Sub to come out and finally Its helping me out.
Also I am having lot of Dreams in which I am usually Naked and with other girls but usually playing with them or having shower with them. But then something happens in the dreams and in the end I realize that this is some kind of fear. For example in one dream I saw a white smoke and felt its presence as if it was a demon and its presence took over me and I was really frightened.
In another Dream I was sleeping but kinda in lucid state and I saw a BIG RED SPIDER and It shot its web towards me and was coming towards me and I was so afraid that I woke up and shouted OMG!!!..It felt so real.
Last dream I remember was related to DEATH!! and I felt so much fear..
Its all fear..I never realised I had this much Fear inside.
