Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

@Shannon an insight I had today so sharing here for data incase you dont get to read my journal - it could be something you already know or something to add to FRM.

My procrastination must have some roots in this of "why bother when I wont be ready in time". When I feel I am slow, that I have not the ability or I feel overwhelmed and for me I know that the root of all this is TIME, than that I feel is when my laziness or procrastination increases.

I have had this feeling of not having enough time since I was a teenager. I dont know where. I dont know how. But its there.

So in summay: Feeling of inability and a feeling of not enough time. Im sure you will say both are fears and all we have are fears but hopefully it helps for FRM v3 / UMOP2 onwards.

Thanks

The root is neither of those things. Those things are just convenient excuses that you are using to be able to procrastinate. The only thing stopping you from planning better and using that planning to accomplish everything in plenty of time is YOU. Your choices are based on these beliefs because that is what accomplishes what you REALLY want to accomplish, which is exactly what you are doing and what you have. You can always see what a person REALLY wants by what they DO and what they HAVE.

People will always SAY what they want you to believe, and DO the truth.

You want to procrastinate and do what you are doing, and then make up endless excuses for it. And that's what you are doing.

Ultimately, yes, it all stems from fear. But your ideas above are just ***** excuses. The truth is, you have the intelligence and the ability and the power to change what you are doing to overcome those issues. You just choose not to, because that's not really what you want to do.

I see. I have no idea how to change it. Whenever in the past I have I start great then fail again and fall. Energy/motivation is high then it falls and fails. The fear and anxiety I feel become stronger and take over and cause me to stop out of fear.

I was never this way until high school and I have absolutely no idea why no matter how much self intraspection I take, I cant seem to understand or locate the root cause, if that is even necessary. Every goal I have wanted to achieve I am procrastinating at and its really disheartening to experience and then to read that somehow its because I want to

Thanks for replying mate.

So ultimately, you agree with me, it's based in fear. And we are going to remove that fear.