09-06-2018, 10:59 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-06-2018, 11:01 PM by SargeMaximus.)
So I'm halfway through my 2 week run of ver. B. So far I've noticed a lot more pushing myself, less excuses, and less "let's wait till I've cleared shit" mentality. More like "I'm going, with or without it". It's been a pretty powerful week. Seen some ioi's, especially at the door in sales, but still not as pronounced as years past.
Today the 18 year old I was texting for a while pinged me out of the blue wondering "R u not interested anymore ?". I tried to set a date but more of the same. Tho she was like "Maybe some other time ???" after I told her "no worries". Then I was like "For sure" and she gave smiley and hug emoji so maybe that means something, maybe it doesn't.
I had a wet dream of my previous FWB last night. I was actually having a sexual dream about her then woke myself up to keep from cumming. But once I fell asleep again the dream just continued and I came. Smh.
I find myself thinking there's no reason we couldn't keep being FWB's as I made her cum and we always had lots of laughs together. But, as always, I know the solution is to get better rather than hope for something from the past.
Other than that not too much to report. I made a bit of money this week but not enough to allow for paying my PUA coach this Friday. I'm aiming for next Friday. He wasn't pleased and told me "no excuses" but not having money legit is not an excuse know m'sayin'? Anyhow, I'm off to bed.
Today the 18 year old I was texting for a while pinged me out of the blue wondering "R u not interested anymore ?". I tried to set a date but more of the same. Tho she was like "Maybe some other time ???" after I told her "no worries". Then I was like "For sure" and she gave smiley and hug emoji so maybe that means something, maybe it doesn't.
I had a wet dream of my previous FWB last night. I was actually having a sexual dream about her then woke myself up to keep from cumming. But once I fell asleep again the dream just continued and I came. Smh.
I find myself thinking there's no reason we couldn't keep being FWB's as I made her cum and we always had lots of laughs together. But, as always, I know the solution is to get better rather than hope for something from the past.
Other than that not too much to report. I made a bit of money this week but not enough to allow for paying my PUA coach this Friday. I'm aiming for next Friday. He wasn't pleased and told me "no excuses" but not having money legit is not an excuse know m'sayin'? Anyhow, I'm off to bed.
