01-23-2018, 04:29 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-23-2018, 04:50 PM by SargeMaximus.)
*sigh*
Went out to do approacbhing today. No confidence whatsoever. I'll get to the negative shit in a minute, first I have something Shannon may want to know about.
An interesting thing happened on the way to the mall. I don't know if this is TID but Shannon please take note!
So I'm on the bus, it's fairly crowded. It's also a double bus, so very long and I was sitting all the way at the back cause I was feeling anti-social today.
Then I notice 2 very attractive women come all the way to the back (where I was) and sit down in that area. The one was my particular type (I have many types, but she was one of them) but I never looked at her, and she never talked to me or sat next to me.
I didn't want to talk to her because I reasoned in my head how, while I may have gotten her interest (maybe, maybe not) if I talked to her she would completely LOSE all interest. So I wanted to keep what little I had.
Anyhow, that wasn't what I wanted Shannon to note. Fast forward to the last 15 minutes of the bus ride, an absolute 9.5/10 (That's the highest I'll ever rank a girl without knowing her personality also fits my desires perfectly. So physically, she was perfect. A different type from the one who had come on previously, but one of my types nontheless) comes on the bus. As soon as I see her I'm thinking "oh my f*cking god!" I lock eyes with her, she looks into mine, then looks down. Then she keeps walking and sits down RIGHT BESIDE ME!
That's not the crazy thing. Honestly, something like that could happen randomly to anyone. The crazy thing is, I felt like I was going to cum in my pants.... and I didn't even have a hard on. Not even a quarter hard on. It was nuts. My dick just started tingling like I was on the edge of orgasm so I adjusted my body, tried to make room for my dick by tugging at my pants, all while this girl is next to me. I didn't look at her and I didn't say anything cause I was too focused on NOT blowing a load while I sat there. I spent the rest of the ride trying to do mental gymnastics and kegels to keep it in my balls. I succeeded.
BUT...
Crazy.
Anyhow, being able to talk to these girls is obviously a key, but we can't do that if we feel like we're about to cum.
It was nuts.
She was so hot.
Anyhow, that was what I wanted to mention. Feel free to leave now, the rest of this post is negative.
So, ever since learning about social skills and "how to be" I've lost all my confidence.
Years ago, it was just do whatever the f*ck I wanted, now it's like everyone is watching me and I have to do everything perfectly.
When saying hi to a girl, my voice comes out as a whisper.
When I'm finally able to run some lines on her, she doesn't seem interested.
Seems like I can't win.
Be myself, girls don't go for me, try to do what works and I'm a timid mouse.
FML.
EDIT: Oh yeah and I got my haircut today. Pretty sure the guy was gay. He was Asian, super cool dude. Gave me an $8 discount. Didn't like the job he did on my beard tho. But the hair is fantastic.
Went out to do approacbhing today. No confidence whatsoever. I'll get to the negative shit in a minute, first I have something Shannon may want to know about.
An interesting thing happened on the way to the mall. I don't know if this is TID but Shannon please take note!
So I'm on the bus, it's fairly crowded. It's also a double bus, so very long and I was sitting all the way at the back cause I was feeling anti-social today.
Then I notice 2 very attractive women come all the way to the back (where I was) and sit down in that area. The one was my particular type (I have many types, but she was one of them) but I never looked at her, and she never talked to me or sat next to me.
I didn't want to talk to her because I reasoned in my head how, while I may have gotten her interest (maybe, maybe not) if I talked to her she would completely LOSE all interest. So I wanted to keep what little I had.
Anyhow, that wasn't what I wanted Shannon to note. Fast forward to the last 15 minutes of the bus ride, an absolute 9.5/10 (That's the highest I'll ever rank a girl without knowing her personality also fits my desires perfectly. So physically, she was perfect. A different type from the one who had come on previously, but one of my types nontheless) comes on the bus. As soon as I see her I'm thinking "oh my f*cking god!" I lock eyes with her, she looks into mine, then looks down. Then she keeps walking and sits down RIGHT BESIDE ME!
That's not the crazy thing. Honestly, something like that could happen randomly to anyone. The crazy thing is, I felt like I was going to cum in my pants.... and I didn't even have a hard on. Not even a quarter hard on. It was nuts. My dick just started tingling like I was on the edge of orgasm so I adjusted my body, tried to make room for my dick by tugging at my pants, all while this girl is next to me. I didn't look at her and I didn't say anything cause I was too focused on NOT blowing a load while I sat there. I spent the rest of the ride trying to do mental gymnastics and kegels to keep it in my balls. I succeeded.
BUT...
Crazy.
Anyhow, being able to talk to these girls is obviously a key, but we can't do that if we feel like we're about to cum.
It was nuts.
She was so hot.
Anyhow, that was what I wanted to mention. Feel free to leave now, the rest of this post is negative.
So, ever since learning about social skills and "how to be" I've lost all my confidence.
Years ago, it was just do whatever the f*ck I wanted, now it's like everyone is watching me and I have to do everything perfectly.
When saying hi to a girl, my voice comes out as a whisper.
When I'm finally able to run some lines on her, she doesn't seem interested.
Seems like I can't win.
Be myself, girls don't go for me, try to do what works and I'm a timid mouse.
FML.
EDIT: Oh yeah and I got my haircut today. Pretty sure the guy was gay. He was Asian, super cool dude. Gave me an $8 discount. Didn't like the job he did on my beard tho. But the hair is fantastic.
