11-18-2017, 11:40 AM
So I've been on AM Refresher for about a month! :o
Notables:
- Police cars everywhere I go
- Got in a car accident
- No improvement to sales (but it IS November, which probably has more to do with it). I ike Shannon's idea to include financial support in DMSI. I'm not a fan of going from $3000+/month while only working 2 hours a day to working 5 hours a day and making less than half, which is what happened this year.
- Very dark thoughts at times
- No one seems to care/catch 22: I do what I think will make me valuable to people (improve social skills, study charisma) and it seems to hurt my value, or I don't work on those things (or abandon them), and have no value anyways (i.e. stay at home, never go out, and never get invited to things).
- Attraction seems to fluctuate and hasn't changed much from when on DMSI. Maybe it's the bloom, but I don't notice any change. Attraction is clearly not a problem for me. I advocate putting more comfort or social skills (specifically eliminating faux pas and bonding/rapport/relatability modules) into DMSI. Attraction only goes so far.
Case in point: Approached/hit on by a girl at a bar during this refresher (Ref. Page 2 of this journal). It went no where.
A few girls online contacted me. Also went no where.
The attraction causes the girls to initiate, but it CLEARLY doesn't lead to sex. It's so blatantly obvious to me. I honestly don't know why people think DMSI needs more attraction. I don't think it does. I think it needs social skills and charisma. Social skills to allow for interactions with women to CONTINUE, and charisma to keep the user from shooting himself in the foot with faux pas.
OR
It needs SO MUCH attraction that any shortcomings we have are forgiven, and forgiven forever. So, if you faux pas (like I do) women just excuse it, and have sex with you. If you don't live up to what they're expectations are of you, they excuse it and just accept it as who you are.
If you insult them unintentionally they excuse it, if you can't relate to them they excuse it, ad infinitum.
I'm not an advocate of this, however, because who wants to be an uncalibrated asshole? I know I don't, which is why I work on my social skills.
It's a fine line, however, because you don't want to be supplicating, but you also don't want to be hurting people in the name of "I'm not supplicating!"
/rant
Moving on:
- Read a lot of books, cover to cover, while on AM refresher
- Morality is becoming a HUGE concern
- Talking to strangers still. Making good impressions sometimes, other times not. Last night I went to Justice League with my cousin (it was pretty good, though needs improvement.) and got into a convo with 3 girls working there. Basically I was asking if I could sit in the area behind the entrance even though I didn't have a ticket. Eventually they let me in, but not before grilling me with a ton of questions.
I thought nothing of it, but my cousin was like "They let you in?" and I was like "yeah." then he asked the girls "You just let him in?!" and the girl was like "Yeah, I trusted his energy. It was a good vibe"
So, overall, while this was a good break, it magnified the fact that once you go on DMSI, you can't really go back to "the way things were". I think I'm hopping back on DMSI. Maybe I'll try starting at 2.5 and seeing how things go, then go to 3.0.1, then 3.1 etc.
Notables:
- Police cars everywhere I go
- Got in a car accident
- No improvement to sales (but it IS November, which probably has more to do with it). I ike Shannon's idea to include financial support in DMSI. I'm not a fan of going from $3000+/month while only working 2 hours a day to working 5 hours a day and making less than half, which is what happened this year.
- Very dark thoughts at times
- No one seems to care/catch 22: I do what I think will make me valuable to people (improve social skills, study charisma) and it seems to hurt my value, or I don't work on those things (or abandon them), and have no value anyways (i.e. stay at home, never go out, and never get invited to things).
- Attraction seems to fluctuate and hasn't changed much from when on DMSI. Maybe it's the bloom, but I don't notice any change. Attraction is clearly not a problem for me. I advocate putting more comfort or social skills (specifically eliminating faux pas and bonding/rapport/relatability modules) into DMSI. Attraction only goes so far.
Case in point: Approached/hit on by a girl at a bar during this refresher (Ref. Page 2 of this journal). It went no where.
A few girls online contacted me. Also went no where.
The attraction causes the girls to initiate, but it CLEARLY doesn't lead to sex. It's so blatantly obvious to me. I honestly don't know why people think DMSI needs more attraction. I don't think it does. I think it needs social skills and charisma. Social skills to allow for interactions with women to CONTINUE, and charisma to keep the user from shooting himself in the foot with faux pas.
OR
It needs SO MUCH attraction that any shortcomings we have are forgiven, and forgiven forever. So, if you faux pas (like I do) women just excuse it, and have sex with you. If you don't live up to what they're expectations are of you, they excuse it and just accept it as who you are.
If you insult them unintentionally they excuse it, if you can't relate to them they excuse it, ad infinitum.
I'm not an advocate of this, however, because who wants to be an uncalibrated asshole? I know I don't, which is why I work on my social skills.
It's a fine line, however, because you don't want to be supplicating, but you also don't want to be hurting people in the name of "I'm not supplicating!"
/rant
Moving on:
- Read a lot of books, cover to cover, while on AM refresher
- Morality is becoming a HUGE concern
- Talking to strangers still. Making good impressions sometimes, other times not. Last night I went to Justice League with my cousin (it was pretty good, though needs improvement.) and got into a convo with 3 girls working there. Basically I was asking if I could sit in the area behind the entrance even though I didn't have a ticket. Eventually they let me in, but not before grilling me with a ton of questions.
I thought nothing of it, but my cousin was like "They let you in?" and I was like "yeah." then he asked the girls "You just let him in?!" and the girl was like "Yeah, I trusted his energy. It was a good vibe"
So, overall, while this was a good break, it magnified the fact that once you go on DMSI, you can't really go back to "the way things were". I think I'm hopping back on DMSI. Maybe I'll try starting at 2.5 and seeing how things go, then go to 3.0.1, then 3.1 etc.
