Had not have much time in the last few days. Tried to better my financial situation through some changes. At the end nothing of them worked. Tried to get a credit with a lower interest rate to pay all my credit card debts at once but got rejected. Wanted to make some changes to my work contract which should bring me more money. But also this turned to be a bad idea because in best case it would bring me a few euros more in a month and in worst case it would had make things worse... There was a much frustration and depression in the given days, because I felt like I can do anything I want to get more money but nothing of the ideas work or made the things worse. I was tapping about a hour on all money and wealth stuff that came in my mind but it didn't help as much as expected. Then I realized that I felt trapped and didn't want to accept the situation and I started tapping on not wanting/not being able to accept the situation I was/am in. This was a real breakthrough and I feel MUCH better now. A funny thing here is that I remembered afterwards reading an article about energy systems (TCM stuff) and the kidney energy circle was associated to sex and also to money. Found it interesting because especially in these two areas I was not really successful in the past.
When it comes to other things so the days before the money thing were mixed. Some days I had a pretty good vibe and another days I felt heavy. Yesterday I was at a party (the tapping stuff was already done at this time). I got approached by different people that night. They just started talking to me. Most of the conversations weren't long but I felt pretty comfortable. I even approached a group of people where I only knew one or two people. In the past I would had feel uncomfortable doing it, but this time it was different. I also spent some time with some women there. We had much body contact and many touches. Most of the time it was just really, really comfortable but we had also some flirty moments and some with this specific kind of tension... It just felt really good and I enjoyed the night and didn't even think much on things like getting laid. Just really enjoyed it all. So far.
When it comes to other things so the days before the money thing were mixed. Some days I had a pretty good vibe and another days I felt heavy. Yesterday I was at a party (the tapping stuff was already done at this time). I got approached by different people that night. They just started talking to me. Most of the conversations weren't long but I felt pretty comfortable. I even approached a group of people where I only knew one or two people. In the past I would had feel uncomfortable doing it, but this time it was different. I also spent some time with some women there. We had much body contact and many touches. Most of the time it was just really, really comfortable but we had also some flirty moments and some with this specific kind of tension... It just felt really good and I enjoyed the night and didn't even think much on things like getting laid. Just really enjoyed it all. So far.
