04-07-2014, 06:31 PM
Something that is confusing me a lot lately. The nature of reality. I've experienced shifts in my mood that were so instant I get weird symptoms. Stuff like headaches and nausea. Maintaining these moods tend to be difficult. It's sort of like a glimpse into what could be, but I can never make it stick. Maybe it's the negative beliefs that pull me back down. I don't really know.
What I do know is that whenever I'm reminded of these negative states, I gravitate back into them. In a way I willingly choose to experience those states again even when I feel like I have the capability of experiencing things much better. Maybe it's tied down to what I believe is the truth. I feel like after a long time of negative beliefs, they have painted my reality and I've come to see them as the "truth". But it's no more of a truth than any other reality I chose to experience. And yet even with that realization, it just doesn't stick. Small events in my life trigger those old beliefs and consequently the old reality.
Which got me thinking beliefs can be created at any time. Are negative emotions and beliefs eliminated? Or is it the belief itself that those negative beliefs and emotions are eliminated? To expand further, if past negativity is eliminated then theoretically it should not come back. But if we merely start to believe that past negativity is gone, that's creating a reality where negative beliefs don't exist. The difference is if it's merely the belief that it's eliminated, there exists the possibility of recreating past issues that need to be removed by internalizing the belief that negativity is still there. Basically it's easy to recreate a reality where you have more problems in a misguided attempt to clear more issues that weren't there before you started contemplating them.
Makes me wish I actually knew how the subconscious mind operates instead of guessing all the time.
What I do know is that whenever I'm reminded of these negative states, I gravitate back into them. In a way I willingly choose to experience those states again even when I feel like I have the capability of experiencing things much better. Maybe it's tied down to what I believe is the truth. I feel like after a long time of negative beliefs, they have painted my reality and I've come to see them as the "truth". But it's no more of a truth than any other reality I chose to experience. And yet even with that realization, it just doesn't stick. Small events in my life trigger those old beliefs and consequently the old reality.
Which got me thinking beliefs can be created at any time. Are negative emotions and beliefs eliminated? Or is it the belief itself that those negative beliefs and emotions are eliminated? To expand further, if past negativity is eliminated then theoretically it should not come back. But if we merely start to believe that past negativity is gone, that's creating a reality where negative beliefs don't exist. The difference is if it's merely the belief that it's eliminated, there exists the possibility of recreating past issues that need to be removed by internalizing the belief that negativity is still there. Basically it's easy to recreate a reality where you have more problems in a misguided attempt to clear more issues that weren't there before you started contemplating them.
Makes me wish I actually knew how the subconscious mind operates instead of guessing all the time.
