Revisiting guilt, shame, and fear

[mat422]

Maybe it's not a problem? Maybe it's just the way you are, and once you stop trying to kill it, it'll stop fighting you for it's survival and you [might] find peace.

For example: Today I had anxiety crippling me. I had 4 nose bleeds, felt like I was going to have a heart attack/stroke at one point, and even got light-headed. Were I not so accustomed to anxiety, I would have gone to the hospital or stayed at home (as I've done before, and nothing's wrong with me btw).

Instead?

I accepted it and went out to do what I wanted today. It's little things like that that tells yourself you accept it fully. You can't tell your hand you won't walk till it's a foot. Accept it all, learn to live WITH yourself, not against yourself.

You're not broken, so don't try to fix it. Just... understand, accept, and keep moving.

I get what you're saying. Nobody solved anything sitting around wishing they were different.

I think there's definitely stuff I have to fix though. I can't deny that. And being honest with myself feels better than telling myself I'm ok.

Maybe I'm misunderstanding you. But my past experience with being more accepting of stuff and not seeing myself as broken caused my issues to weave themselves into my personality. Instead I'm accepting of being messed up because at least then I know what has to change.