08-20-2012, 02:17 PM
I just started stage four last night and I'm looking forward to seeing what happens over the next month.
The last month was very tough on my emotionally. It might have been resistance that I was going through or it might have been that I just need to learn to relax and let go. At times I was terribly depressed and I felt that I wasn't worth anything and that I should just quit.
However over the weekend a friends girlfriend had a birthday dinner. While I was there I had a really good time and caught up with some friends I hadn't seen for a long time. By the end of the night I felt so much better. Yesterday I did some work but also relaxed a lot in the evening. It seems to be that when I relax I feel better very quickly. This seems to imply that this depression and anxiety I'm having is just about me been overtired and overworked.
Today I feel great and I've been very productive, so I'm convinced that as long as I look after myself I'll be fine. Perhaps Alpha Male is pushing me to make sure that I look after myself properly. I tend to be a workaholic and take on too many projects. I am getting much better at managing my time and controlling my life. The only thing is that it's going to be a while before I can really have a proper break. However I think my life/work balance is beginning to improve.
I seem to be getting some nice responses from women at the moment. I was very depressed last weekend but despite that women seemed to be very open to me. It was strange because in a way I felt unattractive and unsocial but women seemed to like me. The other day a cute woman I don't think I have ever seen before greeted my from across the street.
Generally I like my appearance but sometimes I feel the complete opposite. Overall though this is improving. I'm learning to appreciate myself more and more everyday.
My work with music is going really really well. I'm working on two radio plays at the moment, both of which are doing great and I'm starting a new project in early September.
The last month was very tough on my emotionally. It might have been resistance that I was going through or it might have been that I just need to learn to relax and let go. At times I was terribly depressed and I felt that I wasn't worth anything and that I should just quit.
However over the weekend a friends girlfriend had a birthday dinner. While I was there I had a really good time and caught up with some friends I hadn't seen for a long time. By the end of the night I felt so much better. Yesterday I did some work but also relaxed a lot in the evening. It seems to be that when I relax I feel better very quickly. This seems to imply that this depression and anxiety I'm having is just about me been overtired and overworked.
Today I feel great and I've been very productive, so I'm convinced that as long as I look after myself I'll be fine. Perhaps Alpha Male is pushing me to make sure that I look after myself properly. I tend to be a workaholic and take on too many projects. I am getting much better at managing my time and controlling my life. The only thing is that it's going to be a while before I can really have a proper break. However I think my life/work balance is beginning to improve.
I seem to be getting some nice responses from women at the moment. I was very depressed last weekend but despite that women seemed to be very open to me. It was strange because in a way I felt unattractive and unsocial but women seemed to like me. The other day a cute woman I don't think I have ever seen before greeted my from across the street.
Generally I like my appearance but sometimes I feel the complete opposite. Overall though this is improving. I'm learning to appreciate myself more and more everyday.
My work with music is going really really well. I'm working on two radio plays at the moment, both of which are doing great and I'm starting a new project in early September.
