02-25-2019, 07:21 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-25-2019, 07:25 AM by Have at ye.)
New forums, wow. 
Some stuff I've noticed: since switching to stereo hi-fi playback, the sub has been impacting me waaay more noticeably than when I used headphones (and it was doing so quite noticeably on the headphones, so that's saying something). It's not always pleasant, mind you (and seems to be waking me up a bit every now and again), but it seems to be doing good work. F. in. I'd sometimes get the urge for a little bit of "hand release" of tension (
), especially when I can't sleep, but in a matter of seconds another part of me (the one that's responding to the sub positively, I'd wager) says "nuh-uh" so I don't, or I'd get the urge to lower the volume (even though it is not that loud as it is) to something I can barely hear, then not a minute later I'm like, "lol, no, why", and set it back up to where it was. All wonky sensation I'd get when using the sub are intensified when I'm playing it on 'em hi-fi speakers at the current settings. I also get glimpses of what I assume to be full "morphine drip" every now and again, usually during the first two loops of the day.
Outside results seem to be continuing to accrue. My knee-jerk fear-based reactions, in general, seem to have decreased significantly overall. My presence is definitely very... strong. People seem to be taking notice of me a fair bit wherever I go.
I am noticing that I now am doing "symbolic visualization" that's related to fear removal, as well as "transmutative absorption" (I especially like doing it when I go to visit my "old haunt" after bardic practice, by which I mean the conservatory I used to attend, haha - it's on the way and it's got plentiful lovely ladies ) automatically when I'm up and about and am not otherwise engaged in anything that requires focus (f. in. commuting, standing in lines when shopping, etc.). One amusing thing I noticed - that conductor who was being unpleasant to me back on ver. 3.2, because a girl he liked hit on me? He did not even return my hello today. Twice. Some people.
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Oh, I'd almost forget - got an offer of two paying gigs in nice company out of the blue today, two months from now. Neat.
Some stuff I've noticed: since switching to stereo hi-fi playback, the sub has been impacting me waaay more noticeably than when I used headphones (and it was doing so quite noticeably on the headphones, so that's saying something). It's not always pleasant, mind you (and seems to be waking me up a bit every now and again), but it seems to be doing good work. F. in. I'd sometimes get the urge for a little bit of "hand release" of tension (
), especially when I can't sleep, but in a matter of seconds another part of me (the one that's responding to the sub positively, I'd wager) says "nuh-uh" so I don't, or I'd get the urge to lower the volume (even though it is not that loud as it is) to something I can barely hear, then not a minute later I'm like, "lol, no, why", and set it back up to where it was. All wonky sensation I'd get when using the sub are intensified when I'm playing it on 'em hi-fi speakers at the current settings. I also get glimpses of what I assume to be full "morphine drip" every now and again, usually during the first two loops of the day.Outside results seem to be continuing to accrue. My knee-jerk fear-based reactions, in general, seem to have decreased significantly overall. My presence is definitely very... strong. People seem to be taking notice of me a fair bit wherever I go.
I am noticing that I now am doing "symbolic visualization" that's related to fear removal, as well as "transmutative absorption" (I especially like doing it when I go to visit my "old haunt" after bardic practice, by which I mean the conservatory I used to attend, haha - it's on the way and it's got plentiful lovely ladies
) automatically when I'm up and about and am not otherwise engaged in anything that requires focus (f. in. commuting, standing in lines when shopping, etc.). One amusing thing I noticed - that conductor who was being unpleasant to me back on ver. 3.2, because a girl he liked hit on me? He did not even return my hello today. Twice. Some people.EDIT
Oh, I'd almost forget - got an offer of two paying gigs in nice company out of the blue today, two months from now. Neat.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
