02-06-2019, 07:19 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-06-2019, 07:21 AM by Have at ye.)
Unfortunately, I have elected to implement once again the "additional shielding protocol", and it seems that it was the right thing to do, judging from the effect this has had today.
I was really, really on the verge of doing very stupid things, and been right on the way to derailing myself - because I was unable to think clearly due to mental and emotional static, and it appeared to me that this "static" was the result of being bombarded by negativity and sabotage attempts by at least several people at the same time - both personal (with my lovely ex appearing to be the main culprit, and I'm now beginning to suspect that she's attempting to do this consciously and deliberately - she's been watching bullshit like Teal Swan, maybe she's picked up some stupid tricks from the Internet) and professional/personal (several people I have to work with for the time being, since they are involved in my touring affairs, and I'm touring next week again).
I don't know, maybe it was fear talking, but after I did my shielding protocol in the morning, right after finishing my DMSI loops, I was able to start to think clearly once more and prevented myself from making what I believe to be a serious mistake. Also I'm feeling way better too, with more physical and mental indicators of execution [EDIT: and it's been getting progressively better, too].
If it was indeed a matter of pushback from people who want me to fail, then I hope that the improved auric shielding modulation that's been added to the skeleton script in LTU5.5g will do the trick. The version of auric shielding that's in this version of DMSI, while a great help, may not have been enough for what I'm facing.
I am currently electing to err on the side of caution and will be doing this "shielding protocol" of mine for the time being because a) I believe that I've been on the right track, and I seriously do not want to mess it up, and b) it is definitely a "I do not have the time, patience, nor the energy for this shit" type of situation. The shielding protocol is additional 20-40 minutes of busywork per day (like I don't have enough things to do, lol), but it is what it is.
All things considered, though, I've had a very productive day up to now, and hopefully this trend shall continue.
I was really, really on the verge of doing very stupid things, and been right on the way to derailing myself - because I was unable to think clearly due to mental and emotional static, and it appeared to me that this "static" was the result of being bombarded by negativity and sabotage attempts by at least several people at the same time - both personal (with my lovely ex appearing to be the main culprit, and I'm now beginning to suspect that she's attempting to do this consciously and deliberately - she's been watching bullshit like Teal Swan, maybe she's picked up some stupid tricks from the Internet) and professional/personal (several people I have to work with for the time being, since they are involved in my touring affairs, and I'm touring next week again).
I don't know, maybe it was fear talking, but after I did my shielding protocol in the morning, right after finishing my DMSI loops, I was able to start to think clearly once more and prevented myself from making what I believe to be a serious mistake. Also I'm feeling way better too, with more physical and mental indicators of execution [EDIT: and it's been getting progressively better, too].
If it was indeed a matter of pushback from people who want me to fail, then I hope that the improved auric shielding modulation that's been added to the skeleton script in LTU5.5g will do the trick. The version of auric shielding that's in this version of DMSI, while a great help, may not have been enough for what I'm facing.
I am currently electing to err on the side of caution and will be doing this "shielding protocol" of mine for the time being because a) I believe that I've been on the right track, and I seriously do not want to mess it up, and b) it is definitely a "I do not have the time, patience, nor the energy for this shit" type of situation. The shielding protocol is additional 20-40 minutes of busywork per day (like I don't have enough things to do, lol), but it is what it is.
All things considered, though, I've had a very productive day up to now, and hopefully this trend shall continue.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
