RainbowAbyssAlpha

[Shannon]

Done with stage 5 Alpha 011
there were some amazing moments and changes
that seemed to happen along the way
but by the end I felt perpetually dissatisfied, relatively
negative, lazier than I have ever been in my life and absolutely indifferent
to everything-it was like a smooth cage animal syndrome all over again.
That being said, I was more forward than I have ever been in my life, a lot
of eye seduction going on, great ease and comfort when interacting with all women, I was emotionally imperturbable unless something got me aggressive-and then I handled it like a bat out of hell, felt like I had huge presence, and seemed to get alot of respect when socializing as well as new ease with socializing. I feel this stage turned me into an extrovert, sitting at home alone could be done but more and more I felt like I was outgrowing my life and 'needed' to push my comfort zone-which was a concept that stopped existing, as I was so relaxed and indifferent that it was hard to get my pulse up unless I was going for a new pr in the weight room lol.
Many time I thought the stage was doing nothing but depressing me at points and leaving me mentally exhausted but as always looking back on how I use to be-the changes are ridiculous, still some insecurities but much improved nonetheless.
Actually, I feel more old self than ever-but in a much improved, more mature way. Nothing I use to care about I still care about-like at all-its kind of freaky.
Onwards to stage 6...hoping to round off with that wildflower 'everything is freakin amazing nonstop-energizer bunny of alphaness and women swarm me' but that might take through sex magnet and another round of Alpha 011

So was stage 5 a good thing? I can't quite tell by that post.