RainbowAbyssAlpha

[Cortez]

Not much to report on, about 10 days left in stage five
I might do twelve more days though cause I only got 5 hours exposure some nights.
I feel really normal right now, not particularly anything. All those awesome results have kind of drifted into the background and I'm being a bit more introverted. I went on one 'date' last Saturday. It was really fun, the chemistry wasn't that great though, I don't really wear mone's for socializing or with women that much anymore but I tried ftl from paradise 7, it made me really high and I didn't really feel like myself and it didn't seem to have much effect on her compared to the first time we met where I was mone-less. This was one of the most gorgeous women I have been out with and I met her outside my house on the street, and I definitely felt like we were both being a little 'try hard' lol
She tended to get in her head a lot, and I kept trying to get her out of it instead of just letting her try. We went to a ping pong bar, then wandered around the city checking out cool stuff, My kiss at the end was pulled away from, she seemed glad I went for it but said she didn't know me well enough kind of half shocked half teasing...mmm Honestly I don't know if I have time for that-although she is 7 years older than me and looking for more stable stuff.
Stage five has been very social, boundary pushing, and feeling very comfortable around all women and people to now I am hitting another resistance wave and much more introverted, have a bit of social anxiety coming up again, and very disinterested in women-to disinterested but still a little needy, its weird feeling this all again but I am so comfortable with myself and that this time this process feels like something easily ignored and I can keep living it up...
I dropped LM because its a b/d hybrid and shouldn't have been mixed with alpha b/d hybrid
and am now thinking of charisma sub or seek the challenge.
I have house party next weekend and am honestly looking to have some fun sexual encounters with some of my favorite girls I left behind in college,(the shallowness returns ) I am thinking which sub will serve me best alongside alpha in my noble purpose?

Awkward dates are so annoying, but that's awesome that you ust met her outside of your house on the street. At least you gave it a shot. Cold approaches like that are some very good progress!