02-09-2011, 10:55 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-09-2011, 10:57 PM by RainbowAbyss.)
About half way done stage 4 alpha 011 with 8-10 hours exposure
and 1 week into seek the challenge with between 1-2 Hours exposure
this has been both awesome and weird.
I have been experimenting and feel I have a solid understanding of which sub is doing what
Alpha 011 stage 4:
On one hand the sub is pushing me foward
I feel like I really want, and am starting to, make the effort to move my life foward.
There is like this energy in my chest, a lightness and I just want to do, do, do and if I can't I kind of go manic.
Im very disconnected from everything, including others negativity, and feel like an island of indifference
while still being able to be very social once I make the initial effor to.
the sub is making everything seem like no big deal so I really just
want to do what I want, when I want. I am htting some rough patches of depression, over thinking, self conciousness, feelings of submissiveness and insecurity
And anxiety that make, but even without these I have never felt so not myself on any sub before.
It feels almost like wearing mx 297 actually, more the self effects for me, and at times the seeming girls reponse of,
he's really cool and I want to be around him but not sexually, at least that an insecurity that's coming up for me.
At other times this sub is making me feel so james bond, Im super smooth, relaxed, just have great natural conversations with women, get a TON of what seems more like romantic with quite a bit of sexual interest.
Woman seem to hover around me and wait or expect me to talk to the. I am starting to ge in a groove of eye seduction again, and Im pretty sure its the sub.
Seek the challenge sub:
In the begining there was some resistance, making me want to do avoiding activities
now I Love this one. I was gonna drop it but I don't know if I can lol
I feel fantastic on this, and it makes life more fun, everything that seemed out of reach is now just something fun to overcome, its all an experiment. No failure only feedback. I also feel really confident and masculine after listening to this as I feel it takes away the root of a lot of male insecurities, and gives access to the power that comes from facing my comfort zone boundries and blastin through them.
I forgot biggest thing with stage 4
way more confidence asking for what I want
And way more ease with leading
others r looking for me to lead and getting a ton of respect
and 1 week into seek the challenge with between 1-2 Hours exposure
this has been both awesome and weird.
I have been experimenting and feel I have a solid understanding of which sub is doing what
Alpha 011 stage 4:
On one hand the sub is pushing me foward
I feel like I really want, and am starting to, make the effort to move my life foward.
There is like this energy in my chest, a lightness and I just want to do, do, do and if I can't I kind of go manic.
Im very disconnected from everything, including others negativity, and feel like an island of indifference
while still being able to be very social once I make the initial effor to.
the sub is making everything seem like no big deal so I really just
want to do what I want, when I want. I am htting some rough patches of depression, over thinking, self conciousness, feelings of submissiveness and insecurity
And anxiety that make, but even without these I have never felt so not myself on any sub before.
It feels almost like wearing mx 297 actually, more the self effects for me, and at times the seeming girls reponse of,
he's really cool and I want to be around him but not sexually, at least that an insecurity that's coming up for me.
At other times this sub is making me feel so james bond, Im super smooth, relaxed, just have great natural conversations with women, get a TON of what seems more like romantic with quite a bit of sexual interest.
Woman seem to hover around me and wait or expect me to talk to the. I am starting to ge in a groove of eye seduction again, and Im pretty sure its the sub.
Seek the challenge sub:
In the begining there was some resistance, making me want to do avoiding activities
now I Love this one. I was gonna drop it but I don't know if I can lol
I feel fantastic on this, and it makes life more fun, everything that seemed out of reach is now just something fun to overcome, its all an experiment. No failure only feedback. I also feel really confident and masculine after listening to this as I feel it takes away the root of a lot of male insecurities, and gives access to the power that comes from facing my comfort zone boundries and blastin through them.
I forgot biggest thing with stage 4
way more confidence asking for what I want
And way more ease with leading
others r looking for me to lead and getting a ton of respect
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
