01-15-2011, 07:30 PM
I started stage 4 and I'll get to that but first I want to mention what I am realizing is that the stages, for me, get progressively less about
being withdrawn and aggressive. This is my theory, we get so used to withdraw, introspection and aggression as sighs of the sub working that once they fade, as the stages progress the subs no longer seem to be working but of course they are, or it could just be resistance. I want to outline how the stages have been for me with each stage consisting of three categories. Perks, cons, not necessarily negative but aspects I experienced that weren't exactly positive although I 'm sure they were for the best, and resistance symptoms or r.s., what I took to be my mind resisting. This is how it is for me at least and maybe for others
for example
stage 1-perks-zero bs. tolerance, much more able to follow my own lead, highly polarized-meaning felt I was becoming strongly individuating and in a energetic charge to move beyond my current environment, really cared less about what others thought, more badboy swagger, could get that in the zone feeling real easily, moved away from external validation
cons super withdrawn, zero interest in women or friends, very tired wanted to be by myself alot, super hot headed and angry, ready to fight all the time
r.s. depression, feeling invisible to people, wanting to quit everything
stage 2-perks-little more open and social, very confident, very focused on my self and my own life, introspective in a productive way. Able to chill out more. Socializing became way easier, approaching women became easier, started thinking more clearly and for myself, huge boost in sense of self worth and certainty
cons-times of being very withdrawn, slight fatigue, getting angry, really not wanting to do what I had to do
r.s. very little, certain days were really tough but in general this was a nice stage for me
Stage 3-perks-this is hard to say because they came so gradually and subtlety-but by the end I would say: , I seemed to become way more dominant, huge increase in interest from women but often I was very unapproachable seeming I would imagine, zero-to no anxiety where I would have felt it before, felt like I couldn't hide out in my room anymore, got much more productive, much less procrastinating, much better under pressure. way more indifference about everything. Seemed to give off a more commanding presence and more sexuality. Not so much the energy of confidence but felt way more comfortable and able to do new things and leave my comfort zone. felt a little lighter than the other stages while also making me more heavy handed, spoke slower, took longer to respond, really pronounced increase in body language again. Very straight and solid. Cared less about being alpha, while often feeling like the alpha in the room. Way easier walking away from things.
cons-got really bossy, sharp, my mind seemed to work faster and more efficiently and slower people pissed me off. At times felt almost trapped in my indifference. Really hated when I felt people weren't listening to me, just up and left.
r.s. felt like the sub was not working.
I want to get more exposure to stage 4, I'll post about my first day on it soon.
being withdrawn and aggressive. This is my theory, we get so used to withdraw, introspection and aggression as sighs of the sub working that once they fade, as the stages progress the subs no longer seem to be working but of course they are, or it could just be resistance. I want to outline how the stages have been for me with each stage consisting of three categories. Perks, cons, not necessarily negative but aspects I experienced that weren't exactly positive although I 'm sure they were for the best, and resistance symptoms or r.s., what I took to be my mind resisting. This is how it is for me at least and maybe for others
for example
stage 1-perks-zero bs. tolerance, much more able to follow my own lead, highly polarized-meaning felt I was becoming strongly individuating and in a energetic charge to move beyond my current environment, really cared less about what others thought, more badboy swagger, could get that in the zone feeling real easily, moved away from external validation
cons super withdrawn, zero interest in women or friends, very tired wanted to be by myself alot, super hot headed and angry, ready to fight all the time
r.s. depression, feeling invisible to people, wanting to quit everything
stage 2-perks-little more open and social, very confident, very focused on my self and my own life, introspective in a productive way. Able to chill out more. Socializing became way easier, approaching women became easier, started thinking more clearly and for myself, huge boost in sense of self worth and certainty
cons-times of being very withdrawn, slight fatigue, getting angry, really not wanting to do what I had to do
r.s. very little, certain days were really tough but in general this was a nice stage for me
Stage 3-perks-this is hard to say because they came so gradually and subtlety-but by the end I would say: , I seemed to become way more dominant, huge increase in interest from women but often I was very unapproachable seeming I would imagine, zero-to no anxiety where I would have felt it before, felt like I couldn't hide out in my room anymore, got much more productive, much less procrastinating, much better under pressure. way more indifference about everything. Seemed to give off a more commanding presence and more sexuality. Not so much the energy of confidence but felt way more comfortable and able to do new things and leave my comfort zone. felt a little lighter than the other stages while also making me more heavy handed, spoke slower, took longer to respond, really pronounced increase in body language again. Very straight and solid. Cared less about being alpha, while often feeling like the alpha in the room. Way easier walking away from things.
cons-got really bossy, sharp, my mind seemed to work faster and more efficiently and slower people pissed me off. At times felt almost trapped in my indifference. Really hated when I felt people weren't listening to me, just up and left.
r.s. felt like the sub was not working.
I want to get more exposure to stage 4, I'll post about my first day on it soon.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
