RainbowAbyssAlpha

[K-Train]

Technically 4 days left of Alpha
although I'm adding an extra 5-7 days of stage 6 because I only got a couple hours of listening in some nights.
I will give a more final review in the testimonials but here is how I feel about it now.
I am a changed man. Very different, much more capable...and still no where near where I want or wanted to be
but that doesn't bother mean at all anymore. There is a permanent strength and knowing, that whatever it takes it will happen, its ok, and right now is just fine. I really do feel like a foundation has been laid for my life, which will be re-enforced of course, but for the first time in my life I REALLY feel totally ready, deserving, and capable of anything I set my mind do.
This is what I have noticed more about stage 6 as its continued
1. Its really hard to get angry anymore, I can get calm and tough but its like anger just doesn't hold in my system anymore
2. Really slowed down, I enjoy being much more chill and enjoying everything
3. More aware of what I need and want to change in my life and more ok with how it is as I'm also more driven to move beyond it
4. I feel sexier than in any other stage so far, shameless about looking at women, gazing alot, getting a ton of female attention and eye contact, but there is also an obvious intimidation factor.
5. Able to talk to anyone without caring about the response
6. Much more sexual tension with women, especially attractive women, I feel like it overpowers them though, I think one girl had an orgasm riding the subway next to me no joke-I don't know if this is Alpha but its started happening really powerfully since stage 6, maybe its cause I'm so relaxed and feeling my own energy it gets state transferred.
7. I feel much more humble and like 'not all that much' while at the same time feeling very confident in general and a really strong sense of self worth, like no one can 'touch me'
8. It is impossible to retreat inside myself anymore-it feels like I'm my own unique entity that is right smack, in the real world. What I mean is that in earlier stages there was a lot of disconnection between 'reality' and me-now it seems were on the same page.
9. Much more positive, just a general sense of well being and internal strength
10. Much more self control and ability to get myself to do things.
11. An ability to think while at the same time being extremely present, like I can see everything from both an emotional-physical perspective and an intellectual-mental one simultaneously .
12. I have become a round hole for the square peg of negativity, it just wont fit!
13. I am feeling my emotions much more without letting them run me in the least.


I will say, and this could be me personally or the fact that I switched sets from '10 to'11 half way through, but I noticed zero manifestation effects from alpha '011 unless you count hovering and signs of interest from women but that seems more a response to my person than a manifestation. I also cannot 'approach' its not that I get anxiety, I don't, I just can't bring myself to do it outside of a nighttime social scene, its like I have no interest, or desire to while intellectually it is something I want to be doing in my life. Which is funny because on stage 4 of the '10 set, which i did for a week before switching, I just found myself approaching. I'm wondering if anything on that was in the '11 set. I can talk and engage a women I'm interested in no problem and am much more direct with taking things where I want them, just not with the approach.
Outside of that I'm pretty thrilled with what the set has done

Great post Rainbow! I noticed the eye thing yesterday too while at work. This cute girl walked in and we just held eye contact until she passed. And what's more, I wasn't ashamed of doing it.

I'm curious about the whole manifestation thing myself. I'm not sure if female attention is what is supposed to be "manifested" but I do remember many times where women I know would just say "you're so cute" and would flirt in such an obvious way that even the guys noticed it.

Approach anxiety...meh. I haven't really noticed much in that area either. But like you, I think it's from not caring.