Racking Up The Notches: DMSI 3.2

[Raikahoken]

Dreams are all about symbols in the end. It might have been disturbing, but you don't need to be thinking about incest in real life, to dream about it.

Sex in dreams is usually the intimate connection with something. That something in this case is whatever your sister symbolizes for you. In my case that would be playfulness, silliness, maybe wisdom. You say that you guys don't get along well tho. So what does your sister symbolize for you?

Thanks for the input man. Hmmm I'll have to think about that one, it's not simple...

Day 36/37 (Day 3/4 of A)

Many things happened these two days. I went to a nearby island with the girl I've been seeing. Good times. My plan was just to get food and massage. I am a person who likes to plan and have a solid itinerary when traveling. I don't like to waste my time finding what to do on the trip itself. That's why I like to travel alone, I'd have more freedom to do what I want to do in the short time. But she's a follower so it's a good match. This trip was really just about me enjoying myself and letting her take part in my world. We really enjoyed our time.

At night she came on to me hard. Sat on my lap while I was taking care of some work at my laptop. Then jumped on me when I was done. Had some hardcore sex. I reckoned she was on her ovulation so she was very horny. She squealed a lot and said things like she liked me dominating her. Showered together after that. She washed my body with hers. Ate some pancakes and then went to sleep. She pointed out I am a lucky guy, I got to make 6K in a few minutes while I was doing my work, and then f*cked her brains out, got my body washed by her and then ate pancakes. Can't argue there

In the morning I woke up with a morning wood. I started groping her and we had sex again, this time even harder and longer than the night before. Good times. Went to a cafe before taking the ferry back.

The dynamic between us in the trip was that of a leader and follower. She was completely following my lead. It was a little like me just enjoying myself and her being a visitor in that space. I felt some insecure vibes from her. She kept asking me to hang out the following week even before we parted. She also kept asking me if I like being with her, or a variant of it. She told me she feels that I am missing some human emotions. After we parted I felt frankly a little drained and grateful we parted. Her insecurity wears me out.

We came back in the afternoon. I had two dates lined up in the late afternoon and evening. One of them is with the girl who flaked on Day 1A. In the meantime, my new Thinkpad X1 Carbon arrived. I was so excited!!! But then I got a message that my transaction was disputed as fraud, which basically means my client from last night might have scammed me and I might have lost 6k. Oh man. What a day. I felt quite accepting actually, I took it as a costly lesson. It might have been worse.

Met the first girl. She had a very flirty energy. She looks a little old but she looks cute and she had such cute reactions. She also had nice legs though a little short. I enjoyed talking to her. However when I steered the topic to dates and fun, she got more closed off and conservative. I was thinking that if I liked her I can axe the next girl, especially since she flaked on me once before, but I sensed that this one is quite conservative despite her fun demeanor, so I ended it there.

The next date was better. She had a very chill vibe. Quite tall at 170 cm, not thin but not fat, very nice to hug. Nice chill conversation. I had half a mind to be cold to her because she flaked on me but I didn't care, I was in a good mood. Just very self amusing and joking. We had beer (I drank half a pint only). Fun conversation, but again when I steered the topic to dates and fun, she got more closed off and conservative. I felt turned off. I switched topics to hobbies and just amused myself talking about my hobbies. She got more hooked. Before leaving I remarked that she's unexpectedly slim. That got a nice reaction. The vibe became more playful and seductive. I ended up feeling her stomach and hugging her. She liked it. Hugged her before leaving. She texted me that she'll see me soon. I got to thinking after that, maybe girls get defensive and conservative with me because that's what I am comfortable with. Truthfully I wasn't very comfortable with my FWB showing that much affection with me. I'm still not used to it. Maybe my expectation creates my reality here.

During the second date, that FWB texted me, saying she really misses me and she needs to know how I feel, if I don't feel the same about her she can move on etc, basically being very needy. I felt a little turned off. Responded after the date, just saying I enjoyed spending time with her and let's just chill for now.

Fun 2 days overall. Gonna sleep now and play my loop.