01-05-2013, 07:24 AM
Stage 1 of AM
Day 1
After 10-15 hours of listening:
-I have 2 dreams like in the horror movies, and 1 dream where someone lost my laptop. I may have some fears coming up inside and that may have caused some of my BETA traits.
-Still getting some euphoria with the previous US sub this morning
-I felt anger slowly building, sometimes it just pops up, I felt that I should have stood up in the past, Some thoughts of where I did not stood up just because I believed that there is no use and I also have fears standing up. I learned,realized,absorbed,internalized that it is important to stand up for your own even if it turns to violence.
-I am now seeing that my previous BETA behavior is not good, a little bit of disappointment that I acted and behaved that way.
-I am realizing that I need to change for the better and I slowly accepting that the new behavior is better.
-More angry thoughts coming up but it is still manageable so far.
Day 1
After 10-15 hours of listening:
-I have 2 dreams like in the horror movies, and 1 dream where someone lost my laptop. I may have some fears coming up inside and that may have caused some of my BETA traits.
-Still getting some euphoria with the previous US sub this morning
-I felt anger slowly building, sometimes it just pops up, I felt that I should have stood up in the past, Some thoughts of where I did not stood up just because I believed that there is no use and I also have fears standing up. I learned,realized,absorbed,internalized that it is important to stand up for your own even if it turns to violence.
-I am now seeing that my previous BETA behavior is not good, a little bit of disappointment that I acted and behaved that way.
-I am realizing that I need to change for the better and I slowly accepting that the new behavior is better.
-More angry thoughts coming up but it is still manageable so far.
