09-06-2020, 11:20 AM
First cycle day 2 - Currently running most of my loops for the day. Tonight I plan to run them all while sleeping. I have been feeling off and on fear quite a bit today. Mainly related to the moods and expectations a couple of people I live with. Part of becoming fearless is learning to set strict boundaries and be able to say no without being afraid of any consequences or confrontation. Choosing that word " consequences " made me realize how much of my fear stems from childhood memories and trauma.
I still feel that a lot of people are incredibly miserable because they try to be something they aren't or do things they don't enjoy to be accepted or get attention. I know from experience. I have cut my hair or dressed differently to please a woman and it did nothing but make me mad at myself and resent her. I guess you could say I am over doing things for other people to please them and avoid conflict and I hate it..
I still feel that a lot of people are incredibly miserable because they try to be something they aren't or do things they don't enjoy to be accepted or get attention. I know from experience. I have cut my hair or dressed differently to please a woman and it did nothing but make me mad at myself and resent her. I guess you could say I am over doing things for other people to please them and avoid conflict and I hate it..
