09-06-2020, 05:19 AM
I really relate to that post. I do this dance in my head hours before writing usually, trying to make sure posts are clear and cohesive, and like you spoke of, not offending anyone. It keeps my mouth shut a lot since--again, all me here--I've tended to be very REactive to others in my imagination.
What I find beautiful is that my best posts come from my own thoughts and feelings, my own reality. I usually only get them every few days--when my focus isn't on everyone else's (imagined) response. My focus is still there as I write now. (Gulp)
It's fear. Nothing but trained fear responses. While just writing, I even imagined "fear of not having fear", which I've had and heard of before. Fear gets pretty creative to stay in control when it's ruled the roost so long. I had an unfamiliar peace a few times on OF, and I've imagined jumping on it even in recent days. I'll stick with LTU6 due to its aim.
What I find beautiful is that my best posts come from my own thoughts and feelings, my own reality. I usually only get them every few days--when my focus isn't on everyone else's (imagined) response. My focus is still there as I write now. (Gulp)
It's fear. Nothing but trained fear responses. While just writing, I even imagined "fear of not having fear", which I've had and heard of before. Fear gets pretty creative to stay in control when it's ruled the roost so long. I had an unfamiliar peace a few times on OF, and I've imagined jumping on it even in recent days. I'll stick with LTU6 due to its aim.
I want to be FREE!
