Onward...

[Patti]

I can't wait to hear your results Sam! If you think of anything else you're curious about, just ask.

Early results from ASC 5g is complete exhaustion! I could sleep 24/7. However, I feel pretty good when awake. So in a nutshell, I feel wonderfully sleepy....or something like that.

[Patti]

Yesterday, I had to drive into the city which I usually hate. I still didn't love it but I was at much more ease.

Also, there's been many people who seem to want to converse with me. Some I don't at all and some I know a little but don't usually talk to much. And I'm getting a lot of compliments! I'm kinda diggen' this sub. lol

[Patti]

Last night I felt like I regressed emotional and confidence wise for the first time in a long time. I felt good starting out but as the night progressed I had that, not feeling good in my own skin feeling. I kept trying to analyze why I was feeling this way but the only thing I kept coming back to was that I just felt like the whole night was a push.

I went to my best friends daughters art exhibit. I love her talent and was really looking forward to going. But from the minute I got in my friends car, I was tripping over my words and saying things that I feel were just to talk type things. That's not me. We did laugh most of the way there because using a car navigational system while driving is nuts! But that was really the only thing that didn't feel weird.

My friend is absolutely stunning. She has a great figure and an awesome personality, I just love her. She's a blast to hang out with or even just talk on the phone....we can laugh about nothing for hours. But I think what I felt last night being with her was insecurity and I don't know why. She's not someone that grew into her beauty, she was born that way. She has 3 siblings and I always thought my kids reminded me of her family growing up. They were always hilarious when together, same as mine.

It might sound like a jealousy type of thing, but that's not it. I'm not really a jealous or envious type of person. I just felt that recently my words had been flowing very easily, almost too much. haha But last night I felt like I had to really think to say anything, let alone make it something funny. Interestingly, I had just been out with her last month and I didn't feel any of this. She in fact seemed more fumbly, knocking over water glasses and just seeming uncomfortable in her own skin, which is highly unusual for her. Not that I want either of us to be uncomfortable, it was just what I observed.

I don't know whether it was a reaction from being with her or just coincidental and something the sub is just working on.

I also had a couple of glasses of wine. I don't usual drink anymore and whenever I do, I just think more and more that alcohol is evil! lol
But I even reverted back to that, thinking I just needed a little to unwind or relax, which is not usually my mentality anymore.

I have a very busy social weekend coming up and I'm just hoping this uneasy feeling smooths out a little.

[Patti]

Holy gluemyeyesclosed batman! What is IN this program?! I am exhausted! And I have no time to be exhausted lol. But I did pack a lot into a little time because I had no choice and had to go back to bed after I got up this morning AND after coffee! This is cake compared to some subs I've used but yikes!

[Shannon]

It sounds like this is causing you exhaustion because it is triggering internal conflict between what part of you is trying to comply and what part of you fears complying. I would suggest you consider using it with OGSF.

[Patti]

It sounds like this is causing you exhaustion because it is triggering internal conflict between what part of you is trying to comply and what part of you fears complying. I would suggest you consider using it with OGSF.

Hi Shannon, I'm sure you are right. Most likely I'm fighting fear, it seems to the theme of all of us who struggle to push through.

Interestingly, I choose this title to kind of up me emotionally before re-usuing OGSF. So I do have plans to get back to that. I didn't think we should use a 5g program with any other program? You know that whole using A with B but not C or D confuses me lol, so can you clarify that for me. Thanks!

[Patti]

Yesterday was a really good emotional day but Wednesday's are one of my favs so I usually do feel better. Todays realization is that I eat too much sugar/candy. I do have a very sweet tooth but one that was curbed while listening to the stop smoking program. Just another perk of that sub. But I'm sure because it wasn't concentrated on the decrease of sugar, my cravings came back. Today I'm tired again but I know it's not because of the sub but because of the candy I ate and possibly not enough water yesterday.

Shannon, I would like a sub to control sugar/sweets....thanks!

[Shannon]

Patti, I'll take a dozen more of me. Thanks! hehe

You are probably responding that way because the stop smoking program was triggering stress relief. Perhaps try the new stress relief 5G?

[Patti]

Patti, I'll take a dozen more of me. Thanks! hehe

You are probably responding that way because the stop smoking program was triggering stress relief. Perhaps try the new stress relief 5G?

Perhaps I will. I actually was thinking about using that one next.

P.S.(I don't know if the world could handle a dozen more of you)

[Patti]

So I'm living in a vicious circle of tiredness...
I more tired, so I go to bed earlier....
And because I'm getting more listening time, I'm more tired....
Sooooooooo....I'm not really sure how to get out of this one! lol

I don't wanna turn it off because I'm afraid it's just a sign of resistance or a bump. When I first started listening to subliminal programs many many years ago, they didn't really work but they were doing something. Because after listening to them for 30 days I would have rather cleaned toilets than listen to them and would end up turning them off. Maybe they were going to work eventually but I just couldn't give them that amount of time. They were really annoying me. So I'm gonna just try to let this run its course, but I have been seeing this becoming a pattern slowly. I'm starting a bad habit of laying down in my bed pretty much after dinner. I can't do that, because I'll end up gaining way too much weight. I tried to stay downstairs and just ended up falling asleep on the couch...so same stuff, different room.

As far as effects of the sub, it's been interesting. I never really thought I had a confidence problem, maybe when I was a kid but not really when I got older. But I think I'm wrong. haha It feels like a smoothing out of how I feel. It's very hard to explain but I do feel good most of time, just a little more tired now than usual. I'm usually only a make-up wearer when I got out but not anymore lol. Now I feel the need just to run my daily errands. And I am basically a t-shirt and jeans kinda a girl, I shop for clothes that feel like pj's but look sharp! Usually I'm running around town in jeans and sweatshirt but not anymore. Now, I'm wearing my sparkly sweater to go to the bank and food store! WTH?!

People are treating me somewhat different too. For instance, I went to a party this past weekend where I know all the people (we have this party every year) but some were coming out of the woodwork to say hi to me. I'd be in mid conversation with someone, and somebody else would come up to me, making themselves very known and say I just wanted to say hi. I'd feel like...hey....sooooo...what's up? lol It's just been strange how some people have been treating me but not in a bad way. It's like I'm new to the group or something.

Anywho, that's all for now. I'm in my second month so I guess it's digging deep. I hope it hit bottom soon, cause I'm getting wayyyyy too much sleep! haha

[Patti]

I think I should be moving on to another program but I feel like I'm not done with this one. Here's the thing I wonder. I'm listening to ASC, so how much confidence is enough? Couldn't this program be one of those ever expanding ones? Even though I feel like I can get more out of this, should I move on or keep at it? Won't I always be able to improve my confidence level if I continue to use this program?

[Patti]

Happy Thanksgiving All! I am thankful for these programs! My continued use helps my well being and emotional state feel loving, grateful, and happy! Thanks Shannon!

[Patti]

I am listening to the newest LTU with the only problem being that I possibly might be getting too much exposure, but so far so good. It must be working on something deep because I've been exhausted at bedtime which is a good thing to be so tired at bedtime. I've also been having dreams about death which could be interpreted as new beginnings. My subconscious is still dealing with quitting smoking, I've been having many dreams of smoking. The last one I had was so real, i woke up thinking it truly happened.

I'm not sure of one thing though. I believe that conscious thoughts for the most part are what we choose to think about. Where as subconscious thoughts come automatically, but are able to influence our conscious thoughts. We just don't realize it's happening.

For me, one form of resistance is wanting to switch to another program. I've already got my conscious's number and usually just ignore this. I've gotten so good at this, that my subconscious has always tried to be crafty and outsmart me in another way. So I really have to pay attention to what's really happening.

Anyway, in my dream I had 2 cigarettes and had asked my kids to grab me a pack when they went to the store. This would make sense because I never liked bumming them from anyone. But here's what I'm not so sure of. In this dream I kept feeling like i was on the border of having a craving so I was searching all my ipods and computers for the stop smoking 7th stage (refresher) and woke up while looking for it.

As I thought about it, I was wondering if maybe my subconscious was trying to help me by suggesting that I listen to that instead of LTU or was it just being crafty at trying to get me to stop listening to LTU?

I didn't change to the 7th stage because my conscious mind is saying i'm being played with. But what if my subconscious is really trying to help me and I'm not listening? I am so clever within myself that I don't even know my own thoughts sometimes....conscious or unconscious.

[Shannon]

If you're having thoughts and dreams like that, a periodic refresher may be in order. Nonsmokers don't think like that, and the program is transitions you to being a nonsmoker internally and externally. Just remember. The key to being smoke free is... not smoking.